Not sure the point of me posting this. I think I just need to vent, or whine, but just need to spill my guts because I'm frustrated and feel like I am in a rut. Just need to get this off my chest. Probably might be a bit of a ramble. Sorry in advance for the possible long post. Soooo..................
First I just want to say I am thankful in this economy to have a full time job, right out of school as a new grad I got in the ED the only place I applied and the only place I will work. I do like my job but I moved a hour and half away from family and friends to take it but welcomed the new start. A fresh new start. I was excited and happy for my new adventure.
I accepted a position of full time registered nurse. Was not specified days or nights just that it is mainly 12 hour shifts. Ok with that. I was told would be a 12 week orientation but after my 3rd week I was getting my own pt's and did really well. I was cut loose early off orientation and I expressed to my boss an interest in night shift as they were short there and I have always been and evening/night person. My boss was glad because most people want days and I was basically begging for nights. They only issue that arose was even though I was doing well adjusting to ER life as a new grad (I'm not bragging, so please don't think I am) could carry my own weight, function independantly, kept up the pace with chaos, calm when $hit hit the fan, crisis arose, pt's crash, blah blah blah, nights are a whole new ball game. We have 20 beds in the ED and after 11pm we only have one doc, a charge nurse and after 3am two RN's and a tech. At nights the ED is the code team, RAT (rapid response) team, IV team and we have no resources like daylight has. The extra staff to pool when we are getting slammed, no secretary and for those that work ER you know what I am talking about. I LOVE nights because you don't have all the administration people and extra people. It is just a laid back, different world on nights. And I love it. Just a awesome group and it turns into a team nursing approach where everyone just helps everyone. If the doc puts up a chart with orders on doesn't matter if its "your" pt whoever is around and is caught up with their work they grab the chart and start the process. Just makes it so nice that we all do work together like that. Daylight isn't so much like that.
Ok, back to why I am venting/whining. After I expressed my interest in nights my boss said she would give it a trial run since they usually keep new nurse's on the mid shifts until they get some experience under their belt where there would be more people to help if needed. I had worked nights for awhile and it went great. Summer came and with everyone being on vacations I started getting tossed around. Nights one day, day off work 12-12, then a 7p-3a, then off a day, 3-11, and 12-12. My body started to get mixed up because I can't adjust to flipping around. I don't have kids and am flexible on what I can work but my body is not handling it. I'm not sleeping good, becoming depressed, I am irritable so bad some days and I am really starting to wonder if I even made the right choice. It is bumming me out. I get along with everyone at work, have a good outgoing personalty, I'm a team player but I have become moody and miserable and I don't like the person I am becoming.
My big boss had left and the new position was being filled by one of our RNs who worked causal. It is great because he knows how the ER is and is going to make some good changes. But change takes time. He is also taking over the scheduling. The new schedule was posted and I am on straight 10am-10pm. UGH!!!!!!!!!! It is great it is going to be a set schedule with no flopping around but I HATE DAYLIGHT HOURS! (To me anything before 5pm is daylight.) I am upset. I was supposed to be nights. Not only am I p**ssed about my new hours, I am upset that I was not told this is my new schedule but the two RN's hired AFTER me are scheduled 7p-7a. Yup, night shift. Granted they are on a different rotation so they are working my days off but I am MAD. I am a red head so I need to keep my temper in check but I was upset. So I went and spoke to my new boss and was trying to be open minded. I went to his office today and asked if I could speak to him. Of course he said come on in. I explained to him that my interest was in nights and I was working that for awhile and that I understood with the vacations that I had to do some flipping around which was ok for awhile. I told him I was not overly (putting it lightly) excited about my new hours. His response? "Well we need the more experienced providers during the day to help with the high volume and flow of the ER". COME ON! GIVE ME A BREAK!. Night shift always gets the shaft. Working with half the staff and most nights a packed ED. He said he was going to reevaluate the schedule and come September or October see how things are going (for everyone) and was going to try an add another full time RN to nights. I was honest and told him that I want nights and that if this was my set schedule that I would not be staying long on 10a-10p. He asked if the 12-12p would be better. I said it was better than 10-10 but it wasn't going to work for me for the long term. I am a night shift person. I am trying to be cool about it. I know he is doing his best trying to get everyone the schedule and hours they want and trying to have the most coverage for the busiest hours so I'm trying to be flexible and understanding. But I am still upset.
So, I guess I needs some words of encouragment. It is only a few months and some will shake their heads wondering why I am upset over a schedule change. Some will think I am ridiculous but I don't function during the daylight hours. I dread the next couple months. Not to mention the docs that usually work daylight hours work EVERYBODY up. It's crazy. Not even going to go into that but again to my fellow ER nurse's, you know the type of doc I am talking about. Just frustrating.
So please someone just tell me (kindly ) that is will be ok. That I have been a little depressed and this is just a little mountain to climb and will pass and things will turn out and I will go back to night shift soon enought and life will be good again. I guess in all seriousness I do needs some cheering up (not to mention a good nights sleep. It is 4am and I haven't gone to bed yet.)
Thank goodness for this site. I am glad to have all of you and glad we have a place to come where we can find others who understand.
For those who read this to the end....God bless ya.
Not sure the point of me posting this. I think I just need to vent, or whine, but just need to spill my guts because I'm frustrated and feel like I am in a rut. Just need to get this off my chest. Probably might be a bit of a ramble. Sorry in advance for the possible long post. Soooo..................
First I just want to say I am thankful in this economy to have a full time job, right out of school as a new grad I got in the ED the only place I applied and the only place I will work. I do like my job but I moved a hour and half away from family and friends to take it but welcomed the new start. A fresh new start. I was excited and happy for my new adventure.
I accepted a position of full time registered nurse. Was not specified days or nights just that it is mainly 12 hour shifts. Ok with that. I was told would be a 12 week orientation but after my 3rd week I was getting my own pt's and did really well. I was cut loose early off orientation and I expressed to my boss an interest in night shift as they were short there and I have always been and evening/night person. My boss was glad because most people want days and I was basically begging for nights. They only issue that arose was even though I was doing well adjusting to ER life as a new grad (I'm not bragging, so please don't think I am) could carry my own weight, function independantly, kept up the pace with chaos, calm when $hit hit the fan, crisis arose, pt's crash, blah blah blah, nights are a whole new ball game. We have 20 beds in the ED and after 11pm we only have one doc, a charge nurse and after 3am two RN's and a tech. At nights the ED is the code team, RAT (rapid response) team, IV team and we have no resources like daylight has. The extra staff to pool when we are getting slammed, no secretary and for those that work ER you know what I am talking about. I LOVE nights because you don't have all the administration people and extra people. It is just a laid back, different world on nights. And I love it. Just a awesome group and it turns into a team nursing approach where everyone just helps everyone. If the doc puts up a chart with orders on doesn't matter if its "your" pt whoever is around and is caught up with their work they grab the chart and start the process. Just makes it so nice that we all do work together like that. Daylight isn't so much like that.
Ok, back to why I am venting/whining. After I expressed my interest in nights my boss said she would give it a trial run since they usually keep new nurse's on the mid shifts until they get some experience under their belt where there would be more people to help if needed. I had worked nights for awhile and it went great. Summer came and with everyone being on vacations I started getting tossed around. Nights one day, day off work 12-12, then a 7p-3a, then off a day, 3-11, and 12-12. My body started to get mixed up because I can't adjust to flipping around. I don't have kids and am flexible on what I can work but my body is not handling it. I'm not sleeping good, becoming depressed, I am irritable so bad some days and I am really starting to wonder if I even made the right choice. It is bumming me out. I get along with everyone at work, have a good outgoing personalty, I'm a team player but I have become moody and miserable and I don't like the person I am becoming.
My big boss had left and the new position was being filled by one of our RNs who worked causal. It is great because he knows how the ER is and is going to make some good changes. But change takes time. He is also taking over the scheduling. The new schedule was posted and I am on straight 10am-10pm. UGH!!!!!!!!!! It is great it is going to be a set schedule with no flopping around but I HATE DAYLIGHT HOURS! (To me anything before 5pm is daylight.) I am upset. I was supposed to be nights.
Not only am I p**ssed about my new hours, I am upset that I was not told this is my new schedule but the two RN's hired AFTER me are scheduled 7p-7a. Yup, night shift. Granted they are on a different rotation so they are working my days off but I am MAD. I am a red head so I need to keep my temper in check
but I was upset. So I went and spoke to my new boss and was trying to be open minded. I went to his office today and asked if I could speak to him. Of course he said come on in. I explained to him that my interest was in nights and I was working that for awhile and that I understood with the vacations that I had to do some flipping around which was ok for awhile. I told him I was not overly (putting it lightly) excited about my new hours. His response? "Well we need the more experienced providers during the day to help with the high volume and flow of the ER". COME ON! GIVE ME A BREAK!. Night shift always gets the shaft. Working with half the staff and most nights a packed ED. He said he was going to reevaluate the schedule and come September or October see how things are going (for everyone) and was going to try an add another full time RN to nights. I was honest and told him that I want nights and that if this was my set schedule that I would not be staying long on 10a-10p. He asked if the 12-12p would be better. I said it was better than 10-10 but it wasn't going to work for me for the long term. I am a night shift person. I am trying to be cool about it. I know he is doing his best trying to get everyone the schedule and hours they want and trying to have the most coverage for the busiest hours so I'm trying to be flexible and understanding. But I am still upset.
So, I guess I needs some words of encouragment. It is only a few months and some will shake their heads wondering why I am upset over a schedule change. Some will think I am ridiculous but I don't function during the daylight hours. I dread the next couple months. Not to mention the docs that usually work daylight hours work EVERYBODY up. It's crazy. Not even going to go into that but again to my fellow ER nurse's, you know the type of doc I am talking about. Just frustrating.
So please someone just tell me (kindly
) that is will be ok. That I have been a little depressed and this is just a little mountain to climb and will pass and things will turn out and I will go back to night shift soon enought and life will be good again.
I guess in all seriousness I do needs some cheering up (not to mention a good nights sleep. It is 4am and I haven't gone to bed yet.)
Thank goodness for this site. I am glad to have all of you and glad we have a place to come where we can find others who understand.
For those who read this to the end....God bless ya.
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.