I am still a new nurse and yet I am already falling prey to being burnt out quickly with patients, being tempted to take shortcuts, and actually questioning my own character. Today I had a patient that exhausted me and when she had discharge orders I was so ready for her to leave. She thanked me at the end, told me to thank the night shift nurses except for one whom she criticized, and was wishing me happy holidays. I was thrown off by her criticizing the other nurse and I don't want to ever throw my coworkers under the bus, so I didn't know how to respond and just apologized and stood there awkwardly. Earlier in the day I had let her take some of her home meds that were discontinued (diuretics), whereas nurses prior had lectured her on the importance of not doing it. I finally found out the reason the MD had temporarily discontinued the diuretic was due to a low sodium level, but her potassium level was fine and she was not symptomatic. In my mind I agreed with her that it was important to keep taking it. Then, I got ready to transport her so she could be picked up and go home. I was so relieved to not take care of her anymore. Then I found out, she didn't have a ride. I was unsure what the policy was but I was pretty sure I'm not supposed to let a patient leave and drive on their own. She had had narcotics that same day. But I just let her go. She said (manipulative/lying, or truth?) that the doctor knew she had no one (in her life) and was driving on her own, and that a previous nurse had let her go. I wheel chaired her awkwardly to an area near her car, but out of anxiety that I would get in trouble, I asked her to walk to her car the rest of the way saying "I'm not sure what I'm allowed to do". She said "Don't worry, your responsibility stops as soon as I leave the hospital building." So here are multiple things wrong with this picture:
I should have called the MD or someone to let them know she insisted on taking her diuretic, and can it be re-ordered
I should have quickly found out if she had a ride available before acting upon transport plans at all.
I should have notified the charge nurse or someone when I found out she didn't have a ride, turned around, and wheeled her back to our unit.
I should have never never let her go when she had taken a pain pill that day.
Surely cameras saw me and I might get in trouble for this later.
I should have been clear on the hospital policy about a patient driving on their own (if they haven't taken any safety compromising drugs).
I should have never never compromised my integrity, ethics, and what was right for fear of the patient manipulating me/opinions of me, for convenience, for being burnt out, for needing to tend to my other patients, for a doctor yelling at me, etc etc etc.
Yet here I am this fresh in my career and I already find that I compromised what was right, that I was willing to lie if need be, and that if I'm not careful it could become a bad habit. How can I be so burnt out this quickly that I'm already a bad nurse.
Not to mention the whole category of medication administration, and the high integrity I must uphold but fail to at times.
I had to confess that, and was wondering if any of you catch yourselves with this attitude. How do you motivate yourself to continue with good character or cleanse yourself of your actions and maintain integrity? If my character were very good I wouldn't even have to ask that question.
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I am still a new nurse and yet I am already falling prey to being burnt out quickly with patients, being tempted to take shortcuts, and actually questioning my own character. Today I had a patient that exhausted me and when she had discharge orders I was so ready for her to leave. She thanked me at the end, told me to thank the night shift nurses except for one whom she criticized, and was wishing me happy holidays. I was thrown off by her criticizing the other nurse and I don't want to ever throw my coworkers under the bus, so I didn't know how to respond and just apologized and stood there awkwardly. Earlier in the day I had let her take some of her home meds that were discontinued (diuretics), whereas nurses prior had lectured her on the importance of not doing it. I finally found out the reason the MD had temporarily discontinued the diuretic was due to a low sodium level, but her potassium level was fine and she was not symptomatic. In my mind I agreed with her that it was important to keep taking it. Then, I got ready to transport her so she could be picked up and go home. I was so relieved to not take care of her anymore. Then I found out, she didn't have a ride. I was unsure what the policy was but I was pretty sure I'm not supposed to let a patient leave and drive on their own. She had had narcotics that same day. But I just let her go. She said (manipulative/lying, or truth?) that the doctor knew she had no one (in her life) and was driving on her own, and that a previous nurse had let her go. I wheel chaired her awkwardly to an area near her car, but out of anxiety that I would get in trouble, I asked her to walk to her car the rest of the way saying "I'm not sure what I'm allowed to do". She said "Don't worry, your responsibility stops as soon as I leave the hospital building." So here are multiple things wrong with this picture: