Depression, why!

I am so sorry u are going through this I have only been a nurse for four years and I often find my self feeling overwhelmed and frustrated with the other coworkers also.. I am wondering if u are coming off rude bc in reality u get embarrassed and are tired of explaining ur stuttering over and over to people that don't understand it and it makes u feel frustrated and is accidentally projected onto ur coworkers.? I get defensive at times but not on purpose and I do apologize.

That is true that I can get frustrated when they keep wanting me to repeat, which just makes my speech worse. Considering the obstacles that I have overcame in my life I should not let that beat me up. The depression does not help. I know one can not change how they are if one is introverted, I like helping everyone that I work with, but I feel that I have to say hey, I got so and so pain medication for pain, or off the BSC or helped 302 to the restroom and is now back in bed, just to let them know I am helping. I am not one for looking for rewards from others, I get that from the patients and from the surveys that come back with my name on them. Seems that is what they want me to do, it is enough that I do chart everything though. I am not the most bubbly of personalities, more like Eeyore and I don't expect to be everyone's friends and listen to gossip.

I am working on a plan to try and just take a break from nursing and work with children at school as a substitute teacher next year and even drive the school bus, and just work prn if they will allow that with me. If not then I plan on just taking a break from there until I find something that my bothersome speech and my introverted self will fit.

I have been called Eeyore more than once in my life. I where a complete false front at work because I hate confrontation. Inside I might be wondering how I can keep going to work everyday for the rest of my life, it is so emotionally exhausting - between the family, pt's and staff. I understand you and hope you find an area where you are well matched. good luck

Hi Sunny68...sorry to hear that you that you are going through a tough situation in you life! first, losing a husband and then possibility of losing a job,,very devastating! But I hope you can get out through this victoriously!You really can't please everybody, so expect that there will be people who will like you and there will be people who will not...Focus on positive things that are happening in yuor life , rather than the negative ones! Hoping the best for you!

Just so you know you're not alone, here is a link from another nurse with a speech problem. She got some good advice along with much-needed encouragement.

Don't give up just yet.

Just my opinion but I don't think your impediment has anything to do with it. People, and yes nurses, too, are just plain MEAN nowadays. I think the nurses that have a problem with you are the type that wants that PERFECT REPORT from a PERFECT NURSE about PERFECT PATIENTS so that she can have a PERFECT SHIFT. There is a lot of throat-cutting and back-stabbing in nursing. If you spoke perfectly, then they would only find something else about you to gripe about. Nursing is stressful. As a nurse, we are supposed to treat and accept our customers with respect. At every facility that I go to as an agency nurse or float nurse, they tell us that our co-workers are our customers as well....in fact, EVERYBODY that pulls into the parking lot are customers. You are a patient wearing a uniform on a good day, just like everybody else in the nursing field. The holier-than-thou'ers need to realize that! They wouldn't treat you that way if you were lying in a hospital bed....at least they shouldn't. Patients do get discharged, go home, and report back to work.....as nurses, doctors, lawyers, etc., but most importantly, as CUSTOMERS!

So, depression pills for you? I think it should be AGGRESSION pills for them!!!!

Again, just my opinion. So pick yourself up and do what you do.

very well said, Lyndaa!!! & probably true! & best of luck to the OP!!

That is true that I can get frustrated when they keep wanting me to repeat, which just makes my speech worse. Considering the obstacles that I have overcame in my life I should not let that beat me up. The depression does not help. I know one can not change how they are if one is introverted, I like helping everyone that I work with, but I feel that I have to say hey, I got so and so pain medication for pain, or off the BSC or helped 302 to the restroom and is now back in bed, just to let them know I am helping. I am not one for looking for rewards from others, I get that from the patients and from the surveys that come back with my name on them. Seems that is what they want me to do, it is enough that I do chart everything though. I am not the most bubbly of personalities, more like Eeyore and I don't expect to be everyone's friends and listen to gossip. I am working on a plan to try and just take a break from nursing and work with children at school as a substitute teacher next year and even drive the school bus, and just work prn if they will allow that with me. If not then I plan on just taking a break from there until I find something that my bothersome speech and my introverted self will fit.

OP, it sounds like you're working in a toxic environment. It's horrible that so-called professionals would treat another nurse that way. Maybe you need a change of work environment. I do private duty Peds home care through an agency. Because my patient is (usually) stable & has had the same nurses for the past 5 years, we don't need to do an in depth report. Some days I don't even see the day nurse because she gets here after I leave. It's a very relaxed, low stress job but still has enough to keep you busy & your skills up to date.

Thank you all for your comments. I am working on something to get out of that position. I tried once before to transfer to a different floor that I have floated to and to which the nurses there and I are friends now and they like the way I work. The manager of the floor that I am on now blocked it once, maybe she will approve the transfer now. If not, then I will just take a break and do something different and step out of nursing for awhile until I can find a place and position that I like.