Burned out

I've found that it takes 12 mos to feel ok, and 1.5 to 2 years to feel comfortable. My vote is to hang in there, but not if its affecting your health. Just know it won't last forever and one day it'll just hit you :)

On March 2, 2019 at 3:54 PM, isis07734 said:

I've found that it takes 12 mos to feel ok, and 1.5 to 2 years to feel comfortable. My vote is to hang in there, but not if its affecting your health. Just know it won't last forever and one day it'll just hit you ?

Thank you for your kind response! I felt much better after having a few days off and I'm in the middle of a stretch at work right now and doing okay. I've been assigned to some less challenging patients the past couple of days (in the sense that they aren't imminently about to code) and that has been nice. I do think I'm going to stick it out at least until I get my BSN/CCRN at the end of this year and reevaluate my feelings then ?

Hang in there! You will learn from each experience.

I would inspect your work life balance, as a preceptor, nursing instructor, and practicing nurse myself, I find that most of my peers who experience burnout is not because of the job itself but because they have "at home" issues and also "at work" issues and so they are in a constant state of stress every waking hour. They may not have control of the life issues but the work issues can be resolved by quitting, big mistake. There was something that brought you to ICU, perhaps the acuity, the need to have the experience for graduate school, the continuous learning, the bragging right, the training to do travel nursing...something. My advice is always to do two things: 1. Resolve the at home issues and decrease your out of work responsibilities or 2. Work less hours if financially feasible. Do some introspection and analyze your stress tolerance and whether critical care is what you want, if so why do you want it?

55 minutes ago, AGRN152 said:

I would inspect your work life balance, as a preceptor, nursing instructor, and practicing nurse myself, I find that most of my peers who experience burnout is not because of the job itself but because they have "at home" issues and also "at work" issues and so they are in a constant state of stress every waking hour. They may not have control of the life issues but the work issues can be resolved by quitting, big mistake. There was something that brought you to ICU, perhaps the acuity, the need to have the experience for graduate school, the continuous learning, the bragging right, the training to do travel nursing...something. My advice is always to do two things: 1. Resolve the at home issues and decrease your out of work responsibilities or 2. Work less hours if financially feasible. Do some introspection and analyze your stress tolerance and whether critical care is what you want, if so why do you want it?

It's funny that you commented on this today... I am actually now in the process of looking for other jobs due to witnessing a major ethics violation at my current job. I would like to report the violation, but am sure that doing so will cause me to need a new job and I'd like to have something new lined up before I take the plunge. I think I am not cut out for the emotional stress of working in the ICU, on top of the moral distress that I am now experiencing. By the time I have a new job lined up, I will be at my year there anyway and a year of critical care experience is likely to take me a long way.

I am looking at non-critical care jobs. I think I need something where I will see positive patient outcomes more often - I'm concerned about how jaded I feel regarding death and suffering. Recently I've had a couple of patients who were alert, doing well, and who I was able to talk to, connect with, and comfort meaningfully and it reminded me of how great nursing can be. One of them ended up having a poor outcome and I just was so upset by it - but it felt nice in a way to actually have feelings about someone dying rather than shrugging it off and hustling to get the room clean so I could get the next crash and burn admit from the ED. I've gone from being thrilled to go to work to consistently feeling depressed, upset, and exhausted at the thought of having to go in - to the point that my last day off before re-starting work gets ruined. I feel like such a stereotype for being so burned out and jaded after such a short time in the ICU, and it feels weird because I think the unit is honestly a great fit for the way my brain works and my detail-oriented personality. But, I am going to have to find that somewhere else because I can't see myself being happy and healthy in this job long-term.

Friend your a new nurse. You are experiencing what we all felt. The fact that your coworkers and management see your worth, it makes me wish you saw it too. The great thing about this forum, you get to connect with nurses from all forms. Specifically, tell me how you destress after work and on days off?

2 hours ago, Snatchedwig said:

Friend your a new nurse. You are experiencing what we all felt. The fact that your coworkers and management see your worth, it makes me wish you saw it too. The great thing about this forum, you get to connect with nurses from all forms. Specifically, tell me how you destress after work and on days off?

Thank you for this response.

I destress immediately after work by talking to my significant other and going to sleep. I work out, try to hang out with friends, do some self-care steps like planning little trips or getting my nails done, and hang out with my kiddo when she gets out of school. Now that the weather where I live is improving, I'll go for a walk whenever I can and I'm getting a puppy soon who will force me to go for walks every day. I think part of the issue might be that I'm switching back and forth between days and nights and have a very unpredictable schedule without a lot of stability, but I'm switching to straight nights soon to see if that helps.

I definitely can see that I've grown as a nurse and that I have a lot of skills and even some competence that I certainly didn't have before but I just feel so tired all the time! I honestly do enjoy a lot of things about work once I arrive and get started, but I dread going if that makes sense.

On 4/8/2019 at 9:49 PM, emmjayy said:

Thank you for this response.

I destress immediately after work by talking to my significant other and going to sleep. I work out, try to hang out with friends, do some self-care steps like planning little trips or getting my nails done, and hang out with my kiddo when she gets out of school. Now that the weather where I live is improving, I'll go for a walk whenever I can and I'm getting a puppy soon who will force me to go for walks every day. I think part of the issue might be that I'm switching back and forth between days and nights and have a very unpredictable schedule without a lot of stability, but I'm switching to straight nights soon to see if that helps.

I definitely can see that I've grown as a nurse and that I have a lot of skills and even some competence that I certainly didn't have before but I just feel so tired all the time! I honestly do enjoy a lot of things about work once I arrive and get started, but I dread going if that makes sense.

Sorry about the slow response, ive had a incredibly stressful week with school. Anyhoo, what you said is awesome. I love how you are pampering yourself because you DESERVE it. The time change you are going through because of work is def not helping you, that itself can cause more stress. How much sleep do you get when you alternate from days and nights?

The new nurse blues is a thing in my eyes.

On 4/11/2019 at 7:56 PM, Snatchedwig said:

Sorry about the slow response, ive had a incredibly stressful week with school. Anyhoo, what you said is awesome. I love how you are pampering yourself because you DESERVE it. The time change you are going through because of work is def not helping you, that itself can cause more stress. How much sleep do you get when you alternate from days and nights?

The new nurse blues is a thing in my eyes.

I do try to get 8 hours of sleep no matter what shift I work, but it's tough committing to that when I'm on night shift because then I feel like all I do is work and sleep and then I hate my life. I usually sleep two-three hours after night shift, get up and hit the gym, and then go back to sleep for a few more hours because I have to do something to feel like I'm more than just a nurse who sleeps and works all the time!

I was a relatively new nurse when I transferred to ICU. Reading your story reminds me 100% of mine, except I only lasted 4 months. Even if I had a stretch of 5 days off, I still constantly dreaded the idea of having to go back. I cried almost every day driving in. I had so much anxiety. Now, I did get a cruddy orientation, but I also realized very quickly that I just wasn't cut out for it. So, yes, some of it may be that you're still a new nurse, but some of it may be that you're not cut out for it either. And you know what? THAT'S OK!!!

The biggest joy that I found in the world of nursing was oncology (something that NEVER crossed my mind before I saw a job opening at an outpatient clinic and applied).

Hi! I received my BSN in December, passed NCLEX in February, and have been off of orientation from the Cardiac ICU for a month now. I must say, you and I are experiencing the same feelings. I’m mentally exhausted. I never really sleep well the day before my night shift starts. I feel dumb sometimes. I’m terrified of making mistakes. I never want the really critical/complex patients and frankly, I don’t think I’m ready to start caring for them yet. I’m scared something bad will happen to one of them and I won’t know what to do. People at work keep asking me to take care of the IABP and CABG patients and I’m not ready for them yet. I do feel bad for rejecting but I know it’s unsafe at this point because of my lack of knowledge. My mind is constantly overthinking. I’ve been told I do way too much at work. I’ve been called an overachiever many times. I’m contemplating if Cardiac ICU is the right thing for me right now. I don’t know what else to do. I just asked someone to be my mentor so I’m proud of that. But overall my life has just been too overwhelming.

23 hours ago, Chelsea95 said:

Hi! I received my BSN in December, passed NCLEX in February, and have been off of orientation from the Cardiac ICU for a month now. I must say, you and I are experiencing the same feelings. I’m mentally exhausted. I never really sleep well the day before my night shift starts. I feel dumb sometimes. I’m terrified of making mistakes. I never want the really critical/complex patients and frankly, I don’t think I’m ready to start caring for them yet. I’m scared something bad will happen to one of them and I won’t know what to do. People at work keep asking me to take care of the IABP and CABG patients and I’m not ready for them yet. I do feel bad for rejecting but I know it’s unsafe at this point because of my lack of knowledge. My mind is constantly overthinking. I’ve been told I do way too much at work. I’ve been called an overachiever many times. I’m contemplating if Cardiac ICU is the right thing for me right now. I don’t know what else to do. I just asked someone to be my mentor so I’m proud of that. But overall my life has just been too overwhelming.

WOW, I can't believe you are already off of orientation! That seems like a very short time to be trained and they already want you taking IABP patients??? I had a 20 week orientation into the medical-surgical ICU and have not yet been trained on IABP (we occasionally get those patients) or CRRT or anything like that! No wonder you feel overwhelmed.... it sounds like you are not getting enough support. I feel for you. I hope that you are able to find a balance in your work and life. I can say that things have slowly been improving for me over the past couple of months thanks to having some more time/experience and thanks to switching to only night shift instead of bouncing back and forth between days and nights. I am still looking for a different position, but I think I am going to stick with this ICU for at least another year to try to come into my own and achieve some competency.

I hope that things improve for you soon! A big turning point for me was joining a gym and going at least three times a week. Makes me feel like I have something to live for other than work and sleep ?