Chelsea95

Hi! I received my BSN in December, passed NCLEX in February, and have been off of orientation from the Cardiac ICU for a month now. I must say, you and I are experiencing the same feelings. I’m mentally exhausted. I never really sleep well the day before my night shift starts. I feel dumb sometimes. I’m terrified of making mistakes. I never want the really critical/complex patients and frankly, I don’t think I’m ready to start caring for them yet. I’m scared something bad will happen to one of them and I won’t know what to do. People at work keep asking me to take care of the IABP and CABG patients and I’m not ready for them yet. I do feel bad for rejecting but I know it’s unsafe at this point because of my lack of knowledge. My mind is constantly overthinking. I’ve been told I do way too much at work. I’ve been called an overachiever many times. I’m contemplating if Cardiac ICU is the right thing for me right now. I don’t know what else to do. I just asked someone to be my mentor so I’m proud of that. But overall my life has just been too overwhelming.