ADIOS ANESTHESIA

Specialties CRNA

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I am grieving the loss of my chosen profession. I really thought becoming a CRNA was what I was meant to do. I became a nurse to become a CRNA. I prayed, applied one last time and was rejected. While in school I loved clinical and looked forward to the early rise & long days in the OR for clinical. I NEVER looked at my watch wondering, "when is this case going to end?" I had a great GPA and great clinical reviews. As a christian, I have put this in GOD's hands, prayed for his will, and I guess being a CRNA is not what he wants me to do with my life.

I sometimes wish I had never gotten in or learned of the profession so I would not miss it so much. Now with 120K debt, all these anesthesia textbooks, and a job I do not like, I am really having a hard time letting go. I do not think I am meant to be a critical nurse because I so unhappy while at work. I am just praying for GOD to direct me

to whatever it is I am supposed to do. Anyone looking for anesthesia texts?

whomi7

14 Posts

Specializes in med-surg.

You were rejected from where?

I know it's hard but try to remember that things don't always go by our timing. I am applying to nursing school for the fall because I have finally let go of the idea that I have to have another child before I become a nurse. Don't get me wrong, I really really want to be a nurse but I've also longed for another child so desperately. After a loss of one of my twins at 33 days old and four miscarriages since, I had to finally stop trying to make this happen on my timing. Hang in there. I know it is cliche but if it is meant to be it will be. God doesn't waste anything.

Specializes in PACU, OR.

I echo whomI7, what went wrong?

Sue Damones

139 Posts

Specializes in ICU.

I am a little confused and trying to understand your post. Are you a CRNA now? You said you had anesthesia textbooks and 120k in debt which I think is very high for an RN or BSN education. You said you were rejected--- I'm guessing this is for CRNA school, but then again you said you were in OR for clinicals and had anesthesia textbooks. Please clarify for us!

Thanks

Zookeeper3

1,361 Posts

Specializes in ICU, ER, EP,.

did you purchase CRNA books before being accepted to the program thinking you would get in?

Critical care is the hardest, it's only us and no where else to go. Some areas is an eat each other up and I'm one ahead of you game because it's so competitive. Being an ICU nurse in cardiac surgery is NOOOOO comparison to the depth of the responsibility of the CRNA.

The CRNA is over the surgeon, can cancel the case, stop the surgery and has the final say until report is given to the receiving nurse, it's a tremendous responsibility.

I'm sorry you failed, but your post is very unclear as how we can help you, please explain further.

Spode

72 Posts

I was in anesthesia school and without getting into lengthy details, had to withdraw in December 2006.

love-d-OR

542 Posts

Specializes in Transplant/Surgical ICU.

The OP was in a program but had to withdraw for personal reasons... Since then he/she has tried to get back into a program with no success...

To the OP, I don't know how may times you have applied and to how many schools but giving up on this dream is a hard decision, but so is fighting on. When do you stop trying? When is it appropriate to just work harder and improve your portfolio? I don't know... Do you stop at your 3rd attempt or just keep trying until the ad com is tired of seeing your application? I say have a back up, but keep trying if this is what you want. Some may say that not everyone is meant to be a CRNA/NP/RN/or whatever, but we all know that coworker that is laabel as a "she/he should not be a _" but they did it, so why can't someone who has so much passion and interest in a profession do it too? Good luck in whatever decision you make.

greenfiremajick

685 Posts

I am grieving the loss of my chosen profession. I really thought becoming a CRNA was what I was meant to do. I became a nurse to become a CRNA. I prayed, applied one last time and was rejected. While in school I loved clinical and looked forward to the early rise & long days in the OR for clinical. I NEVER looked at my watch wondering, "when is this case going to end?" I had a great GPA and great clinical reviews. As a christian, I have put this in GOD's hands, prayed for his will, and I guess being a CRNA is not what he wants me to do with my life.

I sometimes wish I had never gotten in or learned of the profession so I would not miss it so much. Now with 120K debt, all these anesthesia textbooks, and a job I do not like, I am really having a hard time letting go. I do not think I am meant to be a critical nurse because I so unhappy while at work. I am just praying for GOD to direct me

to whatever it is I am supposed to do. Anyone looking for anesthesia texts?

There's a lot to be said for perseverance......

He that endureth to the end shall be saved.

--Matthew 10:22

Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.

--James 1:12

The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one often comes from a strong will and the other from a strong won't.

--Henry Ward Beecher

Accomplishment and success are often the result of commitment and perseverance rather than skill or talent.

--George Van Valkenburg

Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained.

--Marie Curie Polish-French chemist

Good fortune and misfortune take effect through perseverance. The way of heaven and earth becomes visible through perseverance. The way of sun and moon become bright through perseverance. All movements under heaven become uniform through perseverance.

--I Ching (B.C. 1150?)

Ephesians 6:18

Praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints,

Romans 5:3-5

More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

Spode

72 Posts

I was in a program and HAD to withrdaw. MY GPA was great and so were my clinical skills

itsmejuli

2,188 Posts

Specializes in Home Care.

Your post is very vague. You withdrew 4 years ago? What have you moved on to?

Specializes in ICU.

I will hold your hand we will get through this!!!! I was wondering what's up hadn't heard from you!!! Time to change direction??? That's NOT the only school! Or the last graduating class...

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