All things were looking good, but somehow I couldn't pass NR 222, I know it is one of the easiest classes ever. I don't know what's wrong with me (Am I just now stupid?). I managed to pass the first part of patho., why can't I make it through this easy course?!
The first time I took Health and Wellness, I didn't make the 76% test average in order to pass, but I was off by 3-5 points, I didn't get so bummed about it, because I saw that I did have the potential to pass. So here I go taking the class again. HOWEVER I know due to the split-up that my husband and I had, and having me and my daughter move into my parents house, it has been stressful, and I did have my depressive days. But when school started, I HAD to put my emotional feelings aside.
Little did I know, even though I kept control of my emotional break-downs, it turns out it affected me through this course and the second part of Patho. which I HAD to drop.
I didn't drop my Health and Wellness class regardless of how bad I failed on my second test, because I had to get my GPA up, and I had to keep my financial aid.
All my hopes were going into my third test and of course the final to make this MIRACLE happen. I studied as much as I could for my third test, which was about life span, you know adolescence, young adult, middle age adult, older adult, Erickson's & Piaget's theories. Easy, piece of cake, I felt good through out the test, I didn't feel any panic.
Well... when the results came in, TO MY SURPRISE, I failed it. I just didn't understand WHY?! I didn't bother going in to review my test, to see what questions I got wrong. At this point, I was embarrassed to even go see my professor, two failed test in a row, I'm sure it would embarrass anyone. Plus there wasn't much time to review my third test, because the final was around the corner.
You bet I did EVERYTHING to study. I went in to speak to a tutor/adviser (which I wish someone would have told me about this place sooner, because it was when I went in that I realized, this is much more than just tutoring), both she and my professor recommended online practice test questions, which I did for like three days. The day before is when I gathered all my flashcards to go over and then, review it and remember.
The big day - it was time for the final. I arrived 30 mins early. I was filled with mixed emotions; I felt doubt, I felt anxious, I felt happy thinking positive thoughts, like me passing the course. And I felt blank; I focused on my breathing to calm my nerves, and to keep my mind blank, which helps.
This time during my test, what I did, before looking at my answers, I broke the question down; I defined keywords, and compared my answers to the choices. Again I wish I could have gone to these tutor advisers sooner. I may not have passed my course by 5-8 points, but I did pass my final test. It didn't matter to me, the most important thing that I needed, which was to pass the course, was not met.
I never felt like dying, if I wasn't officially depressed, once I got the news I definitely was. I cried for a couple days, I knew I had lost my financial aid, and what got me the most was that I have received a dismissal letter, that I keeping high high hopes, that it does get appealed.
I've never been so down in my life. I feel like all hope is lost, I just begun my future, and for it to get taken. Please tell me there is someone out there who has been in my similar situation.