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  1. JenVG

    Is There Still Hope?

    All things were looking good, but somehow I couldn't pass NR 222, I know it is one of the easiest classes ever. I don't know what's wrong with me (Am I just now stupid?). I managed to pass the first part of patho., why can't I make it through this easy course?! The first time I took Health and Wellness, I didn't make the 76% test average in order to pass, but I was off by 3-5 points, I didn't get so bummed about it, because I saw that I did have the potential to pass. So here I go taking the class again. HOWEVER I know due to the split-up that my husband and I had, and having me and my daughter move into my parents house, it has been stressful, and I did have my depressive days. But when school started, I HAD to put my emotional feelings aside. Little did I know, even though I kept control of my emotional break-downs, it turns out it affected me through this course and the second part of Patho. which I HAD to drop. I didn't drop my Health and Wellness class regardless of how bad I failed on my second test, because I had to get my GPA up, and I had to keep my financial aid. All my hopes were going into my third test and of course the final to make this MIRACLE happen. I studied as much as I could for my third test, which was about life span, you know adolescence, young adult, middle age adult, older adult, Erickson's & Piaget's theories. Easy, piece of cake, I felt good through out the test, I didn't feel any panic. Well... when the results came in, TO MY SURPRISE, I failed it. I just didn't understand WHY?! I didn't bother going in to review my test, to see what questions I got wrong. At this point, I was embarrassed to even go see my professor, two failed test in a row, I'm sure it would embarrass anyone. Plus there wasn't much time to review my third test, because the final was around the corner. You bet I did EVERYTHING to study. I went in to speak to a tutor/adviser (which I wish someone would have told me about this place sooner, because it was when I went in that I realized, this is much more than just tutoring), both she and my professor recommended online practice test questions, which I did for like three days. The day before is when I gathered all my flashcards to go over and then, review it and remember. The big day - it was time for the final. I arrived 30 mins early. I was filled with mixed emotions; I felt doubt, I felt anxious, I felt happy thinking positive thoughts, like me passing the course. And I felt blank; I focused on my breathing to calm my nerves, and to keep my mind blank, which helps. This time during my test, what I did, before looking at my answers, I broke the question down; I defined keywords, and compared my answers to the choices. Again I wish I could have gone to these tutor advisers sooner. I may not have passed my course by 5-8 points, but I did pass my final test. It didn't matter to me, the most important thing that I needed, which was to pass the course, was not met. I never felt like dying, if I wasn't officially depressed, once I got the news I definitely was. I cried for a couple days, I knew I had lost my financial aid, and what got me the most was that I have received a dismissal letter, that I keeping high high hopes, that it does get appealed. I've never been so down in my life. I feel like all hope is lost, I just begun my future, and for it to get taken. Please tell me there is someone out there who has been in my similar situation.
  2. SarahElizabethJean

    Feeling Guilty

    A few years ago I decided to go to a nursing college because the program was cheap compared to the university program that I initially wanted to go to. I had no idea of what nursing was like so I had no idea of what I was getting myself into. I thought nursing was just giving needles to people and checking their temperature. Yeah, there's a lot that I didn't know... I took it for a year and it was during a bad time in my life so I felt very depressed. I started to hate nursing, I thought seeing wounds, cleaning people up and surgeries were just disgusting. Also, I was a teenager, so getting up for a 7am shift seemed too crazy to me. I had a placement in geriatrics and the elderly were not what I thought they'd be. They would yell at me for no reason, they would be completely different people during an evening shift and I hated having to change their adult diapers. I really felt that I wasn't confident enough to become a nurse, I was scared that I wouldn't be able to save someone's life. I remember learning all about needles and how to inject them. I was taught that you shouldn't have any air in the needle or it would kill the patient,.. that freaked me out. I got stressed out and thought what if I accidentally kill someone??? That would never leave my concious. I absolutely love kids and knew that if I'm going to be a nurse I'd be in the pediatric ward for sure, but then I thought, what if I give a child the wrong dose?? What if I don't notice a symptom and fail to report on it and the child dies?? I also felt that maybe I wasn't mature enough for it. Maybe being a big girl in this new world was a scary thought so then I decided to drop out.. I remember my dad kept pushing me to stay and when I told him that I dropped out, it broke his heart. I thought nursing wasn't for me and that I could help people in another way. That was three years ago and everyday I think about my decision. Every time I see a nurse I get very envious and think wow.. that could be me right now... I could be saving someone's life right now... It's a very strange feeling because I remember being so upset in my program but once I dropped out I still felt upset. I went to get my BA in another field of study and it taught me that I really do want to help people out. I spent a lot of time and money on it and I just don't think I could ever go back into nursing due to expenses and if I'm actually REALLY ready for it. I don't want to go into and drop out again. I don't know what it is about nursing, but I just feel upset every time I think about it. I feel like maybe writing this story will help me feel better about not completing my nursing program. Maybe someone out there will let me know that it was okay that I dropped out and did something else... I'll be doing another program in the fall (which relates to helping people) so maybe that will help me feel better and maybe I'll get a great job when I finish... I just need some reassurance that maybe I will find happiness in a different career and that this guilt will go away... '