sleeplessnseattle

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Specializes in open heart recovery.

a cop for two yrs. Parameic Supervisor for ten yrs. An RN,ccrn,cardiovacular, open heart recovery,housesuper, all for 25 yrs. Then I awokeshackled &.handcuffed. Being transpo states away to face a sinle charge of Rx fraud. I arrive @ the Pd was bookked in & releasad on 3 yrs probation. My wife & I separated & I had my 2 yr old son. My son & I were living in a state away from my mom , when I got home one morning from a 12r hr nioc sht. The phone rang and my mother's shill voce sad she couldn't swallow. I called 911 & EMS took her to the hospital, where after I had arrived fom a hr ride. I went into tho endo lab to view an adenocarcinoma in her pharynx the size of a softball, the biopsy was matatstic. I was given the duty to ask where mom wanted to live her last days and she said with me. So, I loaded mom up and we went to okc and it was there mom passed with me at her side. I merely went through the motions o a human beig, hollow inside. Almost catatonic. I ell into lotab,etoh addiction. Sent to prison by my ex-wife's county sherrif husband for 9 mo for non=payment of a years childupport. Now I an't work for medicare/medicad due to the oig exclusion list. I'm 55 & tired. Few hire felons, even with BSN & vietnam veteran. Now I ride my motorcycle hoping my time here on earth passes by quickly. No patients were ever harmed while under my care. Thank You America

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Specializes in ER, Trauma.

It's always amazed me that with billions of people in the world, bad luck isn't more evenly spread around. It just finds certain people, places, and times and clusters there. I feel you couldn't have posted what you did if you didn't have a good desire to rise above it all. Granted there are places that just wont consider you, but don't give up. Here's hoping you find someone who'll give you a chance to make a living along with a better life. Good luck brother.

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Specializes in Home health was tops, 2nd was L&D.

Life is just keeps happening....hang on and I hope things can at least get stable then maybe better. Best of luck

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You are still Obviously still under the influence. This venue would be helpful, if you were coherent.

Get a grip, find some help in real time.

Good luck, you are over the edge.:crying2:

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Specializes in open heart recovery.

I've been clean & sober x 10yrs. Just finnished a 800+ ride, had to vent. I apologize for any misgivings.

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Specializes in Geriatrics.
I've been clean & sober x 10yrs. Just finnished a 800+ ride, had to vent. I apologize for any misgivings.

This may be true (I'll take your word that it is), so first off, Congrats for 10 yrs soberiety! But you sound very depressed, with good reason. Life is not about just waiting out your time here. There are so many ways you could still be of service. Have you considered helping out others? Your story would certianly help others who are faced with similar situations. You can volunteer with teens & young adults, they need the guidence your experience can offer. But, please, get some help for your depression, the strength your showing just posting here would be a great loss to all of us if you were to just give up. Good Luck!

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Specializes in open heart recovery.

Thank you, seriously. Rick

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Specializes in Clinical Research, Outpt Women's Health.

You need to get help. You are clearly exremely sad and depressed. For your childs sake if not your own please reach out to mental health therapaist ASAP.

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