Kellorn

I couldn't love this more, op. I got out of bedside nursing as well. I'll spare you all the horrid stories and details. Op, you really don't have to convince people why you had to leave, but it would be nice if the members of this thread gave you encouragement and respect for your decision. I personally wish you well. You will have a life for you and your husband that you wanted! Take care.

I wish I was one of those nurses who get by without antidepressants...oh well.

I hear ya there....

Yup. It certainly happens all the time.

Yeah, because every nurse/ CNA has never had to make their own way in life like you, op. You certainly are annoying and talk like a little girl. Time to put your big girl pants on and talk like an adult if you want to treated as one.

Why are you opening a whole new can of worms by contacting the BON. I have a psychiatrist history as well, but I certainly didn't want to involve the BON into my life until I needed to. Personally, the less contract with the BON I have, the better off I am. Just do your job and keep quiet about it. Trust me. Others will not give you sympathy or give you special treatment due to your "psychology history". Just about all the nurses I know have psychiatric issues. Very few don't. I wouldn't go around wearing it like a badge of courage. Not trying to be mean, I've been a nurse for 13 years.

Hey, at least your mature enough to admit that you didn't know, and accept that your practices will change in the future. You're not stupid.

I literally just got the shivers about the nitro. I hope you're ok, that could have really been a game changer for you. Glad the patient is ok.

I don't even know where to start. I had been an RN for 10 years in long term care before deciding I needed a change. At my interview for a med/Surg position at the hospital, I was honest with the managers that I did have good thinking skills, but lacked clinical experience as there were a lot of things I never did in long term care. As far as charting went, I knew I had that skill, but I told them if the hired me, I would need to be treated as if I was a new nurse, with a preceptor and an organized orientation period. Lucky for me, I was hired and basically treated as a new grad, because that was my experience level on med/Surg. I learned from wonderful nurses who were encouraging, and I was never disrespectful, but grateful even though most of these nurses were 15 years younger than me. Because I was respectful and willing to learn from all different types of nurses, when I was on my own I never ever had an issue of somebody helping me if I needed help, or me helping someone else. Fast forward one year later...manager wants me to start precepting new nurses and be charge nurse. I fought this for months, I was not nearly comfortable trying to teach a new grad how to be a nurse when I was trying to be a proficient nurse myself. I had a lot of anxiety at the time, worrying myself to death about making sure I did a good job. Finally manager said I had to precept and couldn't refuse. I was not happy about this, because I wasn't confident in myself. I got 3 great grads to whom I explained my methods and rationale, however I expected them to develop their own methods and critical thinking. Nobody treated me like a bad nurse, because I told them from the start that we are all RN's with the same credentials and we were going to be a team and figure things out together if I didn't have the answer. It was part of the learning process for all of us. I was always tools I did a good job, and was never critical of another, either as as preceptee or preceptor.