PsychNurse2008

Thank you for sharing your story mine is very similar. I am newly diagnosed we have known for years that I have ptsd from childhood trauma but there was always something else off about me. I too am discouraged by comments on here and by peers toward BPD. It makes me reluctant to reach out when I truly need it because I don't want to be viewed as attention seeking. I don't want to go to the hospital to be dismissed and have the eyes rolled at me behind my back because obviously I am trying to be manipulative. Ive been guilty of this myself before my diagnosis. I feel like its ironic My dr diagnosed me with the disorder I didn't enjoy dealing with either. I appreciate your story. I appreciate I am not alone. We don't all see black and white all the time. We are not all manipulative. We are just trying to live in this world where our perceptions are skewed.

Thank you. I was recently diagnosed with BPD. I have spent my whole life wondering why I viewed things so differently than everyone else and why everyone seemed to hate me etc. I am working on my issues, I have to say we usually have other diagnosis as well. I have ptsd from early trauma. I get genuinely suicidal but I am afraid to ask for help because as soon as someone sees the BPD they automatically assume attention seeking. I myself was guilty of this working on the floor until I was diagnosed myself. Most of us don't want this. It is not fun to live with and makes everyone around you miserable even when you are trying not to act like a crazy a$$hole. I just perceive things different. I cant explain how the never ending feelings of emptiness and just not feeling real affect you and your interactions. I am suspicious of everyone. I know we are not easy to be around we can be annoying. But patience goes along way, tap out if we are on your nerves. Most of the time its not intentional unless there is a narcissistic component to it. Thank you Madricka for reminding all of us that we are sick and need empathy as well even if we are not the easiest people to deal with. Trust me I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

Thank you as someone who has been recently diagnosed with BPD, (also have a earlier diagnosis of ptsd) I am afraid to ask for help and reluctant to voice anything I am feeling because of the whole attitude of "oh look the borderline is seeking attention again) Also I thing many people who are diagnosed with BPD are misdiagnosed if you look at the DSM they have more histrionic symptoms (attention seeking, dramatic, cutting for attention etc). We get a bad rap but we are people too. None of us like living this way. Our brains always misconstruing everything around us. IT SUCKS. So thank you for actually pointing out we are people too and showing some empathy.

This exactly. This is what I was trying to say with my previous response. OP you are very stuck on this situation to the point you are seething and cant let go and just want something bad to happen to her. (get fired). You are coming off very mean in your responses OP. Just saying.

OK I am usually very nice but I am going to be honest you sound very entitled and snotty. You have no idea what is going on with this woman. Her mom could be struggling with cancer, her husband could be abusive, she could have a sick child etc. How do you handle conflict in your personal life? SO she is rude to you...Yes that sucks and is unprofessional but its like now you have a nasty chip on your shoulder about it. Let it go, move on. If this is the worst you ever encounter consider yourself lucky...What are you going to do the first time a patient calls you a stupid B**** and throws their water pitcher at you and screams at you that you are horrible? Or the patient that decides they hate you for no reason and spends all shift yelling and degrading you. Because it happens. We are human we have bad days. You seem just really stuck on something that you need to let go. She was spoken to about her attitude. Let it go. Also if you walk in with that " thank god I'm not going to be a nurse for long because they are so petty" you are not going to be very successful. Nursing is a teamwork job. You are new and not even a nurse yet. Get some humility and a thicker skin.

I agree with some other poster that the "glamorizing" of these shootings add to the issue. These shooters become famous. Nicholas Cruz who shot the school up in Florida was in the news for getting HUNDREDS of letters while in jail after killing all those people. They said girls were sending him suggestive material and pictures, sending him gifts....Why would you put that information in the news??? The kid in Texas apparently had been bullied, been turned down by a girl etc. He sees this other kid getting notoriety and attention from what he did, I am not saying that's the cause but it doesn't help. The media needs to stop sensationalizing these acts.