I feel lost

Wait to see if it’s offered, then give it a whirl. You never know until you try!

I haven't taken the position. I knew it wasn't me. So my situation is this: Going back to work after six weeks following a op. I hate it on that particular ward, all year the charge nurse has been getting me in their office to go over why I my sick leave has skyrocketed. It was because I needed two ops which are done. They are known to take nurses to HR over these things. Also some of the staff have told her that I don't allocate properly but I can't opt out of being in-charge because "I was a disappointment being a senior nurse in all" She has favorites and I'm not one. So I feel backstabbed over the allocation episode plus the ward environment is not great. I hate it, I cant say it enough. I feel down when I'm there yet I'm a good nurse. So I was thinking about going prn bureau to get away. However the reference from her is not going to be a good one, regarding my sick leave. But I have to use her.

Regarding references-Do you have any friends/closer(ish) coworkers at your current job that you could use as a reference instead? If your facility is large enough to have a dedicated HR (believe it or not, some don't), then comb through your employee handbook to see if it addresses anything about references having to go through HR anyway. At one of the places I worked, it didn't matter if your coworkers/supervisor even wanted to give a reference; they were forbidden to do so and everything had to go through HR. Real pain in the butt trying to explain why you don't have any coworker references and just have HR listed, but it could also help you in your situation!

Regarding Per Diem Status-I think you have a good plan dropping down to per diem, as long as you can find another full-time job first or make the bills only working per diem until you found one. Good luck!

Thank you for that. However we have to use the charge nurse. But I have an interview next week for casual. So things are looking up.

Your health is more important. You need it to be your best for a job that is the right fit for You. Don't use the person you can't trust to give you a good reference. You could probably use a professor or someone who has supervised your work.

The charge has already given a reference. I turned down the job but the interviewer told me what the charge said. I was excellent nurse but there was a problem with my communication with her. First problem I've had in my career. But I want to ask for a second chance to apply for that job. I did say I was a little unconfident with informatics. So maybe it's too late.

I'm sorry you have so much stress with your current job. I can relate -- it's taken me awhile to find my niche. I just wanted to wish you well, and encourage you to continue applying for something -- anything -- else. I worked in acute rehab, med-surg, and then OR before trying out my current role (nurse educator, family practice). It's amazing to no longer loath work and dread going back whenever I'm not there. Whatever it is, it's a night-and-day difference. Keep looking for change!

I have to go back to my normal job on Thursday, dreading it. I feel stressed already. I lost my confidence in allocating patients because the charge said that she heard whispers that I didn't do it fairly. Ive always been a good leader on the shift, but it changed everything because it was untrue.

Flossy, Please reconsider informatics, if it's not too late. I took an informatics position a few years ago with no real computer experience or education. My coworkers and supervisor appreciate us for our nursing knowledge, and we are not expected to be IT experts. I have been sent to short computer classes where I am weak. I'm sure each workplace is different, but your nursing knowledge is really needed on the informatics side, and your daily life be a lot more happy.

Okay, so I asked to be reconsidered. However despite obviously having good references. They have asked me to find two nurse specialists to be referees. I don't know anyone. Why do people have to make it so hard. I'm a excellent nurse enjoy the job, my patients everything.