Hey all! I finally got treatment scheduled (six months practicing sobriety, four months calling/showing up, and finding a different treatment center later). I have been a very active participant in AA, but my word, the focus on trying to get into treatment provided an incredible amount of distraction. When i got the call today I felt...floored, anxious. I spoke with my sponsor and realized it was because my journey thus far has been my choice, I show up to meetings even when don't want to, but with the understanding that I can choose not to show up. This is a whole new level of surrender. This just got really real! I've said it before and it remains true, every step in this adventure is terrifying to me, but as soon as I get there it is never as terrifying as it feels when it remains in the confines of my mind. Cheers to the next terrifying step!
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Hey all! I finally got treatment scheduled (six months practicing sobriety, four months calling/showing up, and finding a different treatment center later). I have been a very active participant in AA, but my word, the focus on trying to get into treatment provided an incredible amount of distraction. When i got the call today I felt...floored, anxious. I spoke with my sponsor and realized it was because my journey thus far has been my choice, I show up to meetings even when don't want to, but with the understanding that I can choose not to show up. This is a whole new level of surrender. This just got really real! I've said it before and it remains true, every step in this adventure is terrifying to me, but as soon as I get there it is never as terrifying as it feels when it remains in the confines of my mind. Cheers to the next terrifying step!