I had been a RN for 3 years and 6 months and I enjoy helping others, I feel like nursing is my reason to live, when I am in a patient room I feel so blessed, I always been a lonely person no many friends, but this type of work fulfill my life, been able to help others make feel useful. But for the last year my whole life is been destroy and I feel so depressed. Last year I was working the night shift at around 05:35 am one of my five patients asked me for dilaudid because of her pain, I checked her chart and she had an order for it, I took the vial out of the pixys, scanned her ID and scanned the medication and then documented as given but unfortunately went I was ready to give the medicine this one felt out my hand and the vial broke. I pick up the broken pieces and placed in the biohazard container and went to look for another nurse to waste. I got distracted with my other four patients and I forgot about it. at about 06:45 am when I was given report to the day nurse, the day nurse made me a comment about the BP in the patient been low because of the dilaudid and I remember at that moment that I was going to waste it. I told the day nurse I did no give the medication because I broke it and I'm going to talk to the Nurse manager to help me to fix this problem. that morning I had a mandatory class we my nurse manager and the class ended at 08:30 am after that I told the manager that I had broke the dilaudid vial and I forgot to wasted, the manager immediately told me that would cost me my job, call me stupid and sent me to the health department, I was screened for drugs and was not allow to leave the hospital until someone was able to pick me up until 12:00 pm. two days later the manager called me and told the drug test was negative, but I was fired and reported to the TBON. almost a year after the TBON send me a letter with a propose agreement to sign it if accept the charges of falsely documentation. the disciplinary action were some classes, monetary fine and one year work under indirect supervision, I denied to signed it because I thought it is too much for an honest mistake. after that my license had formal charges and waiting for a hearing I had paid almost $10.000 in attorney fees, run out my savings, apply 100s of times, and cannot find a job. I feel desperate, and the stress is killing me. can somebody help me please?
I had been a RN for 3 years and 6 months and I enjoy helping others, I feel like nursing is my reason to live, when I am in a patient room I feel so blessed, I always been a lonely person no many friends, but this type of work fulfill my life, been able to help others make feel useful. But for the last year my whole life is been destroy and I feel so depressed. Last year I was working the night shift at around 05:35 am one of my five patients asked me for dilaudid because of her pain, I checked her chart and she had an order for it, I took the vial out of the pixys, scanned her ID and scanned the medication and then documented as given but unfortunately went I was ready to give the medicine this one felt out my hand and the vial broke. I pick up the broken pieces and placed in the biohazard container and went to look for another nurse to waste. I got distracted with my other four patients and I forgot about it. at about 06:45 am when I was given report to the day nurse, the day nurse made me a comment about the BP in the patient been low because of the dilaudid and I remember at that moment that I was going to waste it. I told the day nurse I did no give the medication because I broke it and I'm going to talk to the Nurse manager to help me to fix this problem. that morning I had a mandatory class we my nurse manager and the class ended at 08:30 am after that I told the manager that I had broke the dilaudid vial and I forgot to wasted, the manager immediately told me that would cost me my job, call me stupid and sent me to the health department, I was screened for drugs and was not allow to leave the hospital until someone was able to pick me up until 12:00 pm. two days later the manager called me and told the drug test was negative, but I was fired and reported to the TBON. almost a year after the TBON send me a letter with a propose agreement to sign it if accept the charges of falsely documentation. the disciplinary action were some classes, monetary fine and one year work under indirect supervision, I denied to signed it because I thought it is too much for an honest mistake. after that my license had formal charges and waiting for a hearing I had paid almost $10.000 in attorney fees, run out my savings, apply 100s of times, and cannot find a job. I feel desperate, and the stress is killing me. can somebody help me please?