Countdown roll call

111 days !!! Can not wait!!! Should have been done in April but had a false positive urine that I couldn’t get thrown out ( even with an attorney !) oh well I can’t wait to be done!!!

Excellent!

On 5/16/2019 at 7:51 AM, SpankedInPittsburgh said:

Not at all Hppy. I still try to follow the goings on but I’m trying to adjust to my new role as an np. I was an ER Nurse for a long, long time. I’m a cardiology np now. Whole different kettle of fish but life is coming into focus. Honestly this pnap garbage plays less of a role in my life now. The hard stuff is all done and I just gotta stay sober for 10 more months which I can do standing on my head. I still have to attend the hated 12 step meetings but I sit in the back and play on my phone and do the pee test but no more “treatment” or not being able to earn a living. I just gotta bide my time

Hang in there! Congrats on the NP! That sounds fascinating!

On 5/15/2019 at 5:01 AM, catsmeow1972 said:

As of today I have 99 days of this hell left!

12 days here as of 4AM this morning. I almost can't believe it. Subtle signs of them getting ready to turn me loose. They sent my boss my quarterly report early to do. Then sent her a questionnaire asking how she liked the evaluation process. The operative word being liked and not likes.

90 to 60 flew. 60 to 30 just a little slower. 30 to 20 seemed like I was stalled in time. The minute I hit 20 it's like I can't keep up!!!!! It's sort of shocks me every time I look at my count down app and see how close I am even though I looked at it a few hours earlier.

Hang in there. Expect some pretty close together drug tests the last month.

We are so close!

46 and counting. I got thwacked with Testing WEEKLY for about 6 weeks running back in April/May. This is up from the last 5 years of 2x a month with the very occasional 3rd chucked in for their monetary pleasure...but it’s all random (cough, cough). Now we’re back to the 2x monthly, shhhh...don’t want to give anyone ideas. Lately, I’ve had indications that the silly little quarterly reports are actually being looked at instead of rubber stamped and stuffed into a file. With 6 weeks to go, I’m cringing at the notion that they’ll pull it out of their ******* that ‘they feel’ that I need some kind of ‘evaluation’ AKA, last major money grab.??

My day count might be hovering on the edge of OCD but after 5 years of my life being controlled, it’s time for this to be over. Heck, it was time 4+ years ago. I don’t know what I’ll do with all the extra time I’ll have since there will be no time wasting (for me, anyway) meetings to attend or the several hundred dollars a month I won’t have to puke up for this abusive nonsense.

yeah, I know, tell ya how I really feel......

46 minutes ago, catsmeow1972 said:

46 and counting. I got thwacked with Testing WEEKLY for about 6 weeks running back in April/May. This is up from the last 5 years of 2x a month with the very occasional 3rd chucked in for their monetary pleasure...but it’s all random (cough, cough). Now we’re back to the 2x monthly, shhhh...don’t want to give anyone ideas. Lately, I’ve had indications that the silly little quarterly reports are actually being looked at instead of rubber stamped and stuffed into a file. With 6 weeks to go, I’m cringing at the notion that they’ll pull it out of their ******* that ‘they feel’ that I need some kind of ‘evaluation’ AKA, last major money grab.??

My day count might be hovering on the edge of OCD but after 5 years of my life being controlled, it’s time for this to be over. Heck, it was time 4+ years ago. I don’t know what I’ll do with all the extra time I’ll have since there will be no time wasting (for me, anyway) meetings to attend or the several hundred dollars a month I won’t have to puke up for this abusive nonsense.

yeah, I know, tell ya how I really feel......

Oh, yeah I just found out they looked at the reports. Changed my relationship status and got a text about what's going on hours after. I'm like it's all good it's a new relationship, been dating a year-and-a-half just calling in a relationship now everything's positive. No issue. Caseworker said congrats, she is awesome. But, I think if the real relationship status was changed to the negative..uh oh!!

11 hours ago, catsmeow1972 said:

Oh, yeah I just found out they looked at the reports. Changed my relationship status and got a text about what's going on hours after. I'm like it's all good it's a new relationship, been dating a year-and-a-half just calling in a relationship now everything's positive. No issue. Caseworker said congrats, she is awesome. But, I think if the real relationship status was changed to the negative..uh oh!!

I actually have historically left those questions blank because IMO, monitoring is about my nursing practice, not my personal life. Who or what I might be dating is completely irrelevant to my professional life, and not their business. They have basically destroyed over 5 years of my life and milked me for just about every penny I have. My privacy will not be a casualty.

I couldn’t even get a congrats on the great new job I *finally* got in spite of them. I sure as heck ain’t disclosing any more information than is absolutely necessary to bury this and get on with my life.

Hahaha you are so right, what do they care if I am in a new relationship or if my finances suck because I can no longer make the same money I used to before monitoring. I rather say everything is fine and that I’m not stressed at all about having to worry about what I eat, what health products I wear on my skin and hair and if I have to test twice in one week.

I must show a big smile and not say anything negative, don’t want anyone to think I’m showing relapsing behavior just because I express my feelings of frustration.

Cat I am truly happy for you. I often read your posts and advice, they are very helpful and right on target. I wish you well.

Lol i CANNOT believe they actually text about a new relationship. That is CRAZY!

20 hours ago, catsmeow1972 said:

46 and counting. I got thwacked with Testing WEEKLY for about 6 weeks running back in April/May. This is up from the last 5 years of 2x a month with the very occasional 3rd chucked in for their monetary pleasure...but it’s all random (cough, cough). Now we’re back to the 2x monthly, shhhh...don’t want to give anyone ideas. Lately, I’ve had indications that the silly little quarterly reports are actually being looked at instead of rubber stamped and stuffed into a file. With 6 weeks to go, I’m cringing at the notion that they’ll pull it out of their ******* that ‘they feel’ that I need some kind of ‘evaluation’ AKA, last major money grab.??

My day count might be hovering on the edge of OCD but after 5 years of my life being controlled, it’s time for this to be over. Heck, it was time 4+ years ago. I don’t know what I’ll do with all the extra time I’ll have since there will be no time wasting (for me, anyway) meetings to attend or the several hundred dollars a month I won’t have to puke up for this abusive nonsense.

yeah, I know, tell ya how I really feel......

Hang in there...almost over.

Take a screenshot of your last log in for sentimental reasons. The next day your account is closed and can’t log in. Got out Nov 2012 and such a great reminder of that hell! Almost done hang in there!!!

6 hours ago, dagobah said:

Take a screenshot of your last log in for sentimental reasons. The next day your account is closed and can’t log in. Got out Nov 2012 and such a great reminder of that hell! Almost done hang in there!!!

Wish I'd have done that. Thinking back, I was probably so glad to finally be finished that I wanted to get the heck out of dodge before they changed their minds ? When I finished, there were "glitches" involving a case worker that either lied or didn't know how to read "Negative ETG" on a test and was purposefully delaying my finish. I had to appeal to the program director, who told me the ETG was negative and I would be promptly discharged within the hour, successfully. I need no reminders of that hell. LOL.

As a cautionary tale, my story is a good reminder to stick to your guns if something in a test comes up in a way that you know isn't the truth. They will try and hang you. Admit to nothing. Another good thought is to hold off eating whatever you want until you actually have the papers or the electronic record in hand stating that you have successfully completed the monitoring. Do not celebrate prematurely.