At what point is it not worth it?

Hugs to you! I second the idea about EAP...it's not always as well-advertised as it should be, but maybe you could just call your human resources department and ask them for the phone number. The whole point of an Employee Assistance Program is that it's anonymous and free, so they shouldn't ask you to identify yourself or your department. This may be stuff that you already know, but I just wanted to mention it because I recently got in touch with the employee assistance program at my hospital, after much fretting and fussing about whether I should actually do it or not, and it basically kept me from going off the deep end. Best of luck with whatever you choose to do!

I have found that ICU & ER are naturally stressful areas. Knowing your S*T helps. They always want to show a new employee up and point out their mistakes. Take time out to become familiar with your drugs and common practices, the other is to pray. Destresss and make time for self. People are who they are. Dealing with adverse situations make you a stronger person. There may not always be an avenue out. On the other hand you and your health come first. If this area is unbearable follow the correct chain of command and procedure to report violatios and prepare to exit. Good luck either way. Never let them see you sweat!

Thanks again everyone. I'll see how tonight goes, but I'm seriously considering calling out the next couple days then giving my manager a heads up that I need out and why.

Go to mother/baby care, a happier floor.

if you need to take a couple of days off, that's certainly up to you, but keep in mind that you may be burning bridges.

aside from that, i'd talk to your nm immediately.

s/he needs to hear what's going on with you.

if s/he is even half decent, she'll take your concerns seriously.

many heartfelt thoughts for resolution and peace.:balloons:

leslie

It's not so much the cliquey people... I've learned in nursing that I can get along with pretty much anyone co-worker wise. It's the stress that the nature of the patients puts on me. I guess i had to try it to find out that it wasn't for me. I know a lot of people like the rush and the stress, but apparently I'm not one of them.