Saw my first code today

Vhope,

That is so sad. Even though you don't know them personally, you can't help but think things like you said (not seeing snow anymore, seeing his kid's pictures...). Try not to dwell on it. {I had a nephew who committed suicide and it has ruined my brother's life, he is still grieving after 4 years. He is disabled d/t depression, dysfunctional grieving,etc.}

The family of this poor man you are talking about needs our prayers.

Take care.

Dixie

I'm sorry to hear about that, I hope you get better. I hope his family does too, in the end it's the person's choice, people can only help so much. Just hang in there

vhope-

((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))).

I'm so sorry. What a tragedy.

It's hard to know what to think or how to feel in a case like this. His poor kids.

((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Sorry you had to deal with this. Maybe some counseling will help you deal with how you're feeling??

Its very hard dealing with suicide. Have you talked about the experience with your preceptor? You might consider critical incident stress debriefing. Completely confidential - it gives the code team a chance to wind down. EDs use it often.

Hmmm, I don't know why I didn't think of that. It sounds like something I may consider if I can't rid myself of the picture in my head. Feeling better now, though. Thanks everybody.

((((Vhope)))) take care of yourself!

Orchid sends hugs to you..........guess its part of our job

xoxo from me, wow what an awful "first code" that you were in.

As a new nurse 9 months out in the ED, I can honestly say that "it is way more difficult when the code is of your age or younger" it's probably one of the hardest things ever. Walk outside with your preceptor or something and talk. Tell your charge nurse that you need a few minutes, usually they understand why.

xoxo Jen