Sounds like you started the wrong profession. Nursing isn't about how hard you work and how it affects your home life. It is about the Passion of caring for those who cannot care for themselves. With any profession/career there are downsides. You can't look at the downside. You have to look at all the positive impact you have on people, all people. You should rethink getting another career. Your heart isn't in this and it will eat you alive. Get out, get a new gig, career, stay at home, anything----but get out. You can do a better good elsewhere. I have been in nursing since I was 17. I worked my way up from aid to LPN to RN to BSN. I have worked med surg, ortho, ED, agency, management, education, and have landed square in ICU since 1985. LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I learned as much as I could and still learn every day. I fight to keep my patients safe and get them out of the hospital fast----or hold their hand as they die....... I work with all kinds of people and have learned to WORK WITH THEM ALL. It is hard. My children say I am their role model and my colleagues (yes that means doctors also) thank me and enjoy working with me. So get out, go to a whole different spectrum of work. Life is soooooo short and you should be totally happy when you walk out the door in the morning.....good luck