and so, today i just took the big risk in my life ever... i was stressed out myself crazily because i have been sick and i also havent studied much during the past month since my grandma is in the icu, and it was the holiday and that my att is going to be expired today.....however, my uncle and also diana2520 encouraged me to go for it just in case i may hit the spot... i was so confused for almost 3 days whether should i take it or postpone it! finally the day before the exam, my mom and my uncle keep pushing me to give it a try..whether or not there still be a 50% of passing if i'm brave enough to go for it...if im not going, 100% is failing since i need to reapply and reschedule everything again... so i made up my mind, left behind all the worries, put too much hope and prayers on myself before entering the testing center...i couldnt sleep well last night and i was rushing myself into the materials...thanks to allnurses.com..those random facts are very helpful...i read through everything and also all the notes that i collected throughout this forum....i did try some kaplan qtrainers questions using slideshare, lecharity, and exam cram questions, two month ago, and also studied the saunders book (just a few chapters)...i think i learn better by solving all the questions...reading the book just makes me feel so sleepy and tired easily.... here is my story: i was so anxious bcz i felt like i was not ready enough to fight and that i could sleep only two hours at night. today is president's holiday and i tried to get there early to see if the testing center was open...my exam was scheduled around 11am...i got there around 9:30am...but it was not open yet...i was hanging around until the guy opened the door and there were already few ppl who have been taking their tests around 8am i think...around 10:30am, there were me and a lady who registered for the test (they wont let you register for the test 30mins earlier the scheduled time)...this particular testing center was super strict with the ids...the lady could not be sitting for the exam bcz her driver license was expired and her name is not matched since she just got married...so she went home to get the citizenship certificate quickly but she could not make it on time...and my turn, they didnt accept my state id and at that point, i just had 20mins left ...thanks god that my house is close so i quickly called my uncle to bring me my passport...5 mins before the exam, he brought me a passport and i was running into the test crazily..... so i tried to calm myself during those first minutes of the exam....i kept repeating to myself" you can do it! you can do it!" ...i got some easy questions on the first 10...i tried to read through the questions carefully and solve it in a calm manner....bcz i know if i rush through the questions when my anxiety kicks in, im going to screw up everything...then it came with so many difficult questions, and when it didnt stop at 75, i started to panick....i tried to re-focus myself after that....kept praying and doing deep breathing...after that i got around 15 sata, 3 weird meds calculation, 1 put-in correct order, 2 exibits, a tons of psych and med-surg priority questions, several delagation questions and around 10 meds questions that i hardly know about...my last question was about a psych med that i didnt even know...i always stick with my first guesss no matter what...finally my screen went blue when i reached to question 126...i was so tired and my mind almost went blank reading through the questions....it took me almost 3 hours to reach that point... i took a short break when i was around question 102...i drank water and did a bit exercise to relax myself....this exam is the biggest stress in my life...even though im done with the exam, i could not get home with a free-mind...i went to lunch and went shopping with my friend...but still i was anxious about the exam....because i knew i didnt do well and get prepared enough...i was so afraid of it...i didnt even let anyone mention about it...when my mom tried to ask how well i did in the exam, i changed the topic and told her not to talk about it...i told my uncle the test was hard and i think i will fail...i was exhausted and went straight to bed...and now it's 3:30 am...i could not sleep anymore when thinking about it.....i couldnt help myself...so i turned on my laptop and tried the pvt trick.... after 5 times doing it, i got the same pop-up saying that "'our records indicate that you have recently scheduled this exam. please contact your member board for further assistance. another registration cannot be made at this time."...is it a good pop-up? does this trick ever go wrong or today is holiday and that they can't process my result quickly? i'm so confused but have to wait for the real result.... good luck everyone!!! remember that never give up!! believe in yourself until the last minute!!!! we can do it!!!! p/s: plz sorry for my grammar