lrslinger

Yes my program was a BSN specifically for those with credentials exceeding the course requirements in the regular 4 year course. Nursing has been an excellent career and I had great placements but Im not sure I would have done a 4 year course. I do recall one school who definitely refused me admission due to ageism.

I did a 2 yr BsN ( since I had a PhD in Neuroscience) at Bloomberg in Toronto. Not only did I target my resume and a cover letter (where one was required) to particular departments I removed all of my grants, publications, and University committees from my resume. I did leave in my significant teaching experience but no details for it. Teaching is recognized as a transferable skill and you likely have some? In the end it was a 2 page resume, not a CV and in the top section I emphasized team work, critical thinking and an real interest in whatever area they were advertising. I should say I have edited literally hundreds of student CVs/ applications so I know how to be ruthless. After I was hired no one knew my background for 4 years when I was outed by a curious patient who Googled everyone. By then colleagues knew me and I subsequently I often talked science especially during Covid. Good luck! .

Quit now, you are risking your reputation, your career and your mental health by staying

I retired as a Scientist at 60, went to nursing school for an accelerated (2yr) BScN program, graduated, passed NCLEX and initially had issues finding a job. Asked a very senior head of nursing for advice. She suggested I leave my previous position out. I did not do this but did minimize my previous work history adding it on as relevant work history on my resume with details at the end and wrote very targeted cover letters for 3 positions. Got 3 interviews and 3 job offers. Initially bullied a lot by experienced RPNs since RNs have leadership roles where I worked and they didn't like any new RNs let alone an 'old' one. Bullying stopped after I asked the worst offenders for their help and stood my ground when necessary. Subsequently had great nursing career where I always watched for the bullying of new staff which is all too common. I became a highly valued of the team and retired at 76. Hang in there.

So at 60 I left a rewarding and well paid career in research to go into an accelerated RN program (2 yrs). I am now 72, work partime as an RN in a large hospital based palliative care program. It's fabulous unit with excellent physicians; nurses have lots of autonomy and acess to those physicians 24/7. Working there can be draining but.everyday you know you are making a real contribution, helping people live their best life possible. Until Covid hit in 2020 I often worked almost full-time and sometimes even OT. Cant do that anymore though, just too hard for so many reasons......Now I see my colleagues and those on contributing units, leaving or retiring in droves. If I had been at the bedside for 20 plus years I am sure I would leave too. As it is I may do so this this year. Money is not the reason I have continued working, rather it was the work itself.

Critical- ask for help/advice from your co-workers when you start and continue to do so when you think you need help. Don't be afraid to ask - relax and congratulations.

I do think you have some serious problems and are in need of professional help. I know many responses have suggested either directly, or indirectly, that you should peruse another profession. However, for all of the reasons others have articulated, at this time in you life I think you are unlikely to succeed at any profession. I do think that with the right help you can develop the ethical framework that will allow you to move ahead but you need to choose to do that.