georgya3

Unfortunately, you will experience this many times and you do need a break! Go to your doctor and describe what you are feeling and get some time off. Or just slow down working. Med-surg/onc is a very heavy area, I do work on a surgical floor and it doesn't take me too long to reach the point where you are right now. It is very challenging to take care of all the needy patients especially when you are new on the floor!

actually there are 7 or even 8 rights right now! and I know them very well! Honestly I am thinking to give up nursing right now, that's all I can think of!!! I love being at the bedside but ... I don't think I can manage 7 surgical patients in this kind of environment! talking about my humility? how would you respond when you get accusations from many people? what would be your answers??? I said ones, just kill me, people and the end of telenovelas!! what else do you expect me to say?? I am sorry, I am running out of thoughts! even someone in the court room would attempt to defend herself/himself!

it doesn't really matter, I posted my experience and life somewhere before this, I am not going to do it again for the sake of ...what? performing a "necropsy" of my professional life!

what do you think? Did I try to hide the med error from the letter?? that's very funny! would you do it? oooo, sorry, you wouldn't done the stupid mistake in the first place! Unfortunately I am not a perfect nurse, I am actually a mess now, that's why I waste my time on this forum instead of being at the bedside!

actually I got the constructive points with what to do in the future, what bothers me is the "you shouldn't have done it and you should have done it" and "what king of nurse are you to do or not to do" part. As I said I am not here because I want to get judged, I am already judged and I will still be until I solve the problem! And anyone will get his/her part of judgement for their actions! The useful part I got from all the posts is: - be careful and not ever do it again - learn how you can be less dependent - do not expect the charge nurse to help you when you are drowning - refuse unsafe assignments - take notes about your future interactions with this charge nurse - talk to the manager and her - stay away from her - change the job! Of course there are many details I cannot expose here for the sake of confidentiality!

actually I acknowledge the gravity, believe it or not. But it wasn't her business to give me that treatment! All she should have said was: you made a med error, I found it, you should have told me about this, I called the doctor and I will have to inform the manager! That's all! But nooo, we guys, we have to take the person through the whole mud to make her feel worse, because we are judgemental while we should not as per our professional standards (at least this is what they taught us in school), we forgot to remain professionals when we interact to each other!! That's all about this topic! You make a mistake, it's your fault and you will pay for it but there is no need to increase the anxiety and spread the word around the unit right after the report! It was my manager's business to decide what I deserve, not hers!This is what bothered me!Spreading the word around the unit!

I am really sorry, my apologies, I thought my English is "defective" but I got it, she was talking about my username! I am so sorry! I cannot take anymore criticism from anyone, I've had quite enough.

thank you, I saw it like criticism, not like suggestion, yes, I am getting defensive more and more, probably because I am having mood changes! As I said, just trying to cope with the mess! Not easy, believe me! and back again, I asked for something and I got something else....hm ..next time I will know what to expect! However, I learned something from all of this inputs! Regarding the error ... I've had enough!

go back to the clinic and stay casual in hospital! In this way you will have both! I used to work in long term care and now I am in hospital, I miss the long term care, I felt I was making a difference in some people's life. I am planning on going back to long term care and stay in hospital on a small position or even casual!

I would look for Anti emetics PRN (gravol, zofran, maxeran) because she probably has something in her file!

Thank you, I am not using my real name!

I think you missed the part where I said I worked 11 years overseas before I moved here! After I got my license here, I worked a few years in long term care where I was charge nurse but that's a different story! However, it doesn't matter, I am getting tired of giving explanations!!! way too tired! 3-4 days of talking and just a few valuable pieces of advice!

when I said second break I tried to say second opportunity, there is one break for each of us, how do you take the breaks in your unit? in my unit half of the nurses go at one time and the other half goes when whoever was in break comes back. And my very first original question when I started this topic was if anyone experienced this situation and what where the outcomes, I did not expect all the talking, but yes, it's a forum, right? people talk!!

I am very tired of all of these, believe me, I can give you the letter seen by my union who decided is abuse, not me, but I cannot, it is confidential. So, in the meantime, that's all I can say! I am going back to work next week when I work with very good/respectful nurses and I feel appreciated, I am not planning on wasting my time on this forum, believe me, I really miss my job! But I want to make sure I am not at risk of making other mistakes before I go! My very honest opinion about her is that she is very new, she told me she needs time and she cried during the shifts (months ago) when she started and I was one of them who comforted her. But people change and forget!!! Thank you for your input, I love it! I forgot how it is to be on a forum, I haven't done it for over 10 years, I used to give just like-uri!