I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this, please don't feel bad that you are leaving "late". Seasoned nurses also leave left if they need to. I can relate to you. I agree with other nurses here saying that you might get burned out if you continue working like this, I know because I did. I've loved welcoming new grad nurses because you guys bring into nursing this freshness and passion and excitement about even the little things and you change seasoned&somewhat burned out nurses' outlook. I am a nurse since 2009 and in my first job (usually 3PM-11PM shift, but I was rotating between day,PM and night shifts and even doing doubles) I left work At 1am or even 2am!! and it made me feel like I didn't know how to manage my time even though I basically ran and cut my break to just few minutes to sit down and eat lunch and many times didnt have a CNA because our CNA was floated to different unit because according to the supervisor that unit needed our CNA more than we did) My second nursing job ( I had a good orientation and had better ratio 1:5 on telemetry/stepdown unit and we had resident MDs. I did night shift (7PM-7AM and left work at 7:45) and if had a late emergency I left 8:30 or even 10AM once to finish my charting) In my last job I did observation/telemetry with medical surgical/telemetry unit (they started combining these units because of short staffing) and sometimes I was floated to telemetry only unit, on another floor. The observation/telemetry unit nurses had 12 hour shifts and the medical surgical/telemetry unit nurses had mixed 12 hours and 8 hours shifts. It was extremely stressful working at this job because of the frequent low staffing, I started there on night shift (up to 8 patients and few occasions ended the shift with 9th pt just rolled up from ER and sometimes that pt was endorsed to next shift, but I still did still basic assessment and vitals and set up in the room. When I moved to day shift, I had 5-7 patients at any given moment, and even 8 at times. Honestly, when I moved from nights to days I felt like a new grad nurse when it came to doing discharges lol It was impossible to leave on time, and towards the end of working there I was leaving at 8:30PM, 9PM, 9:30PM (completing my charting of course). Before the units were combined, the typical day on observation/tele was at least 3 admissions, 2 transfers, 2 discharges to home or NH or rehab. After the units were combined (observation/tele with medical surgical/tele, the typical day was at least 2 admissions, 2 discharges, maybe 1 transfer, and when 3PM came, they made us "pick up new patients" because we ended up with 4-5 patients at 3PM so almost everytime at 3PM I picked up 1-2 new patients plus an admission, and had my regular patients whoever was staying. ( Basically, we were picking up new patients from nurses who had 8 hour shifts and were leaving at 3PM ). It was very very very stressful. So basically, I had a total of 8-10 patients during the entire 7am-7pm shift, including all these admissions, discharges, and transfers. ( On night shift, we picked up new patients from 8 hour shift nurses who were leaving at 11PM) There were no resident MDs. There was only primary team, the attending medical doctor and the consultant doctors (sometimes even few) and the RN is supposed to do all the calling for admissions, consultations, etc. We did not have our secretary and sometimes the secretary would come from the unit we were combined with and help out, but would not really stay with us so most phone calls were picked up by RNs and CNAs. It was just very chaotic. Because of all this running around my legs started to hurt really bad, not like regular soreness of typical nurse's day, but really bad, sometimes I cried from pain on the way home. There was so little time to sit during work, I think going to day shift aggravated my problem with legs. Once I put legs high on pillows and slept, I felt better. I noticed BP sometimes got high because of stress and started having more migraines/headaches.