Hating life!!!!

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I recently found out that I failed the RN NCLEX exam for the 2nd time in a row!:banghead: I've decided this is obviously not meant for me! I know everyone keeps saying "don't give up, you worked so hard in nursing school, you need to keep taking the test" but for what purpose??? To keep proving to myself that I can't pass it?!?! I've NEVER been a test taker, EVER...and it's not going to get any better! I studied and studied and studied for this exam...both times, and both times=failure!!!!! I just don't know what to do with my life now. Yeah I'm depressed and I know some will say, give yourself time you'll get over this, just keep studying and take it again you'll eventually pass!! I've read other people's blogs and there are people on here that have taken the NCLEX 6 or more times before passing....there is no way I can or will do that! NO WAY!!! Even if I wanted to I wouldn't be able to afford it but on the other hand, if I'm not passing after my 2nd or 3rd attempt then I just need to stop! Besides...I am over spending every single day of my life reading text books, answering questions, and stressing out! Is this life really worth it??? I feel like I've already taken 20 years off just from stressin out so much!!! I hate that I chose to do this for my career, I hate that I wasted all this time in nursing school to have it come down to this stupid exam, I hate that I feel like I have no other job options, and I hate that I am hating everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I sound super negative, but it's hard to be happy and think great things when you just keep failing....I hate this life I'm in right now!!!! I HATE IT!!!

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Please pm me. Maybe I can help

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I don't know how??? I'm new to this site????

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Specializes in ER, TRAUMA, MED-SURG.

Totally lost - I was reading your posting and one thing you said kept reminding me of myself - "I've never been a test taker." PLEASE don't feel like this and feel like you should just give it up. I have never been a good test taker, I always stunk. If it could help, there may be someone you could talk to - a counselor, someone.

Just please don't feel like you are the only one to be in this position, or to feel like you do. Sometimes I feel like the ones that make the best nurses are the ones who had to work so hard for it. I have been a nurse for 18 years now, and I do owe a lot to the person who helped me see that just because I wasn't a great test taker didn't mean my nursing career wouldn't happen.

Anne, RNC

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Totally lost. check ur inbox I sent u a pm

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Totally lost, you can't send PMs until you have posted 15 times. Have you considered going to your school and getting some help there? Most schools support their students to pass the NCLEX. You could also try another strategy. Perhaps a tutor, online review, or live review course. You know that you should not let your nursing education go to waste. Yes, you're right, some people pass after six or even 10 attempts. They did not give up, and you shouldn't either.

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I totally feel the way that you do right now... I failed the NCLEX twice and feel that the whole nursing thing isn't for me. I am at a crossroads where I'm left to ponder about whether I should give the NCLEX another shot or simply leave behind my 2 years of nursing education and find some work in a completely different field. Unfortunately, hours of NCLEX study doesn't pay the bills, unless you've already locked up an RN position at a hospital and are guaranteed to pass the NCLEX. I really envy most of the dilligent people on this site who never gave up, and continue to inspire other people not to give up either. I couldn't agree more with you about not having many job options, especially when you're so close to being an RN, yet realizing that you have one heck of a final obstacle blocking your path. After my past two failed attempts, I feel reluctant to give the state of California another $75.00, and even more reluctant to give PearsonVue another $200... all to fail once more. I'm also bothered by the fact that I couldn't pass the NCLEX on my first try, like so many of my nursing school peers... and I feel like the black sheep of the group. I often wonder why I'm in the position that I'm in, and why I couldn't be successful like the rest of my friends. Perhaps I'm not as smart as them, or maybe I'm a terrible nurse... My confidence is totally shot, and at times I regret even finishing nursing school, or even considering the major... seeing as how it is so difficult to land an RN position at hospitals given the economy and all. I apologize for my lack of positive thinking. Just know that you're definitely not alone as far as how you feel right now. I hope and pray that you'll be able to collect yourself and rebound from all this, and ultimately give the NCLEX another shot when you feel ready. You'll definitely find all the support you'll need on here!

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Specializes in rehabilitation.

Hello,

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way and all we can do is encourage you and advise you to try other options but it's up to you to listen. I seriously will recommend the Kaplan review course. It sounds like you study a lot, and all you need is to understand the concept, and the structure of the NCLEX questions and how to answer them. You need to take strategies class, and Kaplan will help you with this. After taking NCLEX-RN, i told all my classmates and friends that there is no textbooks that can better prepare you for the NCLEX. I really mean "BETTER" prepare you, of course you need to do many questions, use different books to study. But when you take the exam, you will not see same scenario or same choices. So you need to use elimination process, ignore disruptive choices, non related choices to the topic.... to come up with the correct answer. Even if you don't know the answer and you guess, your choice is not gonna bring you below the line of success. I have friends who are bad test takers, and the first thing they did when we got done with school was to take the Kaplan. Again, make this sacrifice and try the Kaplan don't think about the money, it will be worhty, you will make some friends there and you can study together. You really need help, and you try it on your own twice already and it did not work. GET SOME HELP.

Good Luck, Thanks.

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know what, i have felt the same way. i failed twice, even though i did my best,my all, and thats all i can do.

theres no way i could pass this exam. right now i feel like im just hanging in the air... dont know where to go.

but for now, im just trying to chill out... i dont have control about it... even if i memorized everything..

they just dont want to let me passed. so whatver comes. :twocents::twocents::twocents::twocents:

still... i just always pray. :saint::saint::saint::saint:

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Specializes in Medical and general practice now LTC.

Shame that you feel you have to give up, many failed twice and took it again. You probably need to look at how you studied and look at another way to study. Would also suggest you take a short break before you start again. Don't give up

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I actually did take the Kaplan course for my first test, it was highly recommended to me from alot of my friends, but it didn't help me pass either time! I was scoring between 65-70% on my weak areas and about 70-80% on the other areas. I felt totally confident, especially the 2nd time. I had no anxiety, and I just knew I was going to pass...but I didn't!!! That's why I am so negative right now because I did what everyone was telling me to do, I was scoring where I was supposed to be scoring and I still failed!!! So at this point I just feel it's a lost cause!!!! I appreciate everyone's advice though, it does make me feel better to know I'm not alone on this!!!

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Hi totally lost: Where did you take the exam and when? Maybe we should avoid that test site too. Maybe you should take it at a different place next time...just an advice.

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