Feeling dread all over again.

[CardiacDork, MSN, RN]

When I began my nursing career two years ago in surgery/postop I was a hot mess new grad. I was a nervous wreck, slow, and shy. That quickly changed, I became competent, confident, quick yet safe, and I developed an overall assertive and confident attitude. I went from dreading my shifts to being annoyed at having to see the same ole same ole. I was on top of my game!

I made a transition to ICU (trauma/surgical) about 6 weeks ago. At first I was excited and had healthy nervousness. I was so happy and looked forward to every shift. Slowly though I've developed a dread about going in to work. I can feel myself picking up more independence and responsibility and my preceptor to begin to cut the ties little by little. But I have dread. There is so much to do in one shift, so much responsibility and it's all in my hands. I'm having a reality shock, about how much responsibility I have. There is so much to learn and I know we haven't covered everything.

I wish I could enjoy ICU again like the beginning. I also miss my old floor so much and sometimes I really want to go back be just hug my old co workers which happen to be in the same hospital. I feel out of place still and still not used to my new co workers. I know it sounds silly but that's how I feel. I miss feeling comfortable on my old floor, miss my old co workers and the fun we had and miss their comforting presence. Here right now I feel alone and to fend for myself.

This was just a vent thread. Let's be honest.

[NightNerd, MSN, RN]

It sounds like you are a really solid nurse! I can totally understand those feelings. It seems like you really grew professionally in your first job and met some wonderful people, and that is hard to walk away from. Just as before, you can push yourself to handle these new challenges, and the confidence you had before will return as you see the progress you make. Give the new folks a chance! You got this!

[Libby1987]

If you became comfortable in anything nursing in just 2 years than you are clearly teachable. If Med Surg became routine to you but you built cohesive relationships then I think you have a natural inclination for success. Get this under your belt and have the ability to choose what you really enjoy. Or take on a new challenge.

[LightMyFire]

I know how you feel. I'm in a new job and there are differences and I don't have the relationships built up either. I don't have advice, just commiserating. We did it before, we'll do it again.

[CardiacDork, MSN, RN]

Thanks everyone. Today was a good day, felt confident.

[Lunah, MSN, RN]

Thanks everyone. Today was a good day, felt confident.

Good for you!! Going outside our comfort zone is what makes us grow. It can be painful, but we push through. :)

[nutella, MSN, RN]

It is normal to have some anxiety or uneasiness after only some weeks in a new setting like ICU. In addition, you do not have the support of the staff that you had before because you are still "new". It is a lot to adjust.

Things will get better ...