have you ever lost it at work?

Yes, I have lost it at work. Had a major meltdown after a needlestick from Hep C pt, totally lost it, had to go home and take a couple of weeks off.

To the OP, you will make it, you sound like your are doing fine, your preceptor is right.

I loose it at work once a month. I blame it on PMS.

Swtooth

Yes, I have lost it at work. Had a major meltdown after a needlestick from Hep C pt, totally lost it, had to go home and take a couple of weeks off.

How did this turn out? Do you now have Hep C?

Oh boy did I lose it one day.

I work weekend differential so every Fri, Sat, and Sun I'm working 12's, which most of the time I handle just fine. ONe weekend I had the pt team from hell. Half of them were one day post op, one bowel prep, one ICU transfer, and one or two (it was a while ago) were having serious increased blood pressure. Half of them were needy pts.

By the time it came around to being 1 1/2 hours before end of shift, I already had my first death ever as a nurse that day and the call light came from my hall for the umptinth time, I got this sudden impression of myself throwing the medcart across the floor. Then I got a flash of what that medcart actually cost and became so frustrated I actually swore and jumped up and down to keep from throwing the med cart. Of course right in front of pt's family's in the hall way.

I promised to myself that I would never do that ever again. I really pride myself with being a cheery person who is pretty optomistic. It has never happened again since.

Not in front of a patient/family...I was at least able to make it to the med room before I lost it. Also sick and shouldn't have tried to work.

Fortunately "losing it" goes hand in hand with becoming a nurse. Think about it, through all your training someone had your back. You were not held personally or professionaly accountable. The same applies to orientation-someone has your back and you can count on them bailing you out of a jam. Now you are facing coming out of orientation. You are beginning to realize that the patients' well being is in your hands.

I say this is fortunate because I have seen new nurses come out and project an aire of, "I'm just as good as you. I can do this on my own". They don't ask questions, they don't take constructive criticism well and they SCARE the sht out of me!!! If a new nurse is not scared, nervous and asking tons of questions I become very cocerned.

Hang in there.

RN x 17 years

Boy, I'm a new nurse and if I had a nickel for every time I've thought to myself "I'm turning in my resignation at the end of the shift", I'd be rich by now. Everything is so new, and it takes a while to get acclimated to it all. Sometimes I think I drive everyone crazy with all the questions I ask at work, but I don't want to do anything unless I'm absolutely certain that I'm going to do it right. I lost it at work a couple of weeks ago when I had a run in with a supervisor. That's the closeset I've ever come to turning in a resignation by the end of shift. We're human. We get overwhelmed at times. Take some time to evaluate your situation. Look at what's working for you and what isn't. It also helps me to take a minute to take some deep breaths at work and evaluate where I am in my duties and what needs to be done. Hang in there!

How did this turn out? Do you now have Hep C?

No, I don't. I tested negative after 6 months.

Thank goodness. Those nasty scares are no fun.

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couple of sick days is what you need... regroup