Diversion

I am a 2 time graduate of TPAPN.  2 years the first time and 5 years monitoring 18 years after the first time.  Honestly, I needed it both times.  I am now 12 years clean and life is good!  I self reported both times after getting confronted by my job.  I made it both times.  The 5 year monitoring is exactly what I needed to stay clean.  It is not the end of the world, but the beginning of what it takes to stay clean and keep my nursing license, and have a better life.    I know the pain I felt both times.  The second time I was sick and dope sick.  Man, I love life without the worry of using, getting caught, the lying, stealing and emotional baggage I was experiencing.  Just do what you have to do.  If I had been discovered earlier, I wouldn't have had to suffer so long.  It is a blessing in disguise.  Just do what you have to do to get enrolled in monitoring and show the Board you are serious about recovery.  Good luck!  Stay on the forum.  It can help you through the rough days.  

Blondie thank you it's just the fact  I  have already been through probation with the board and now potentially being reported again is scaring me to death because I was on actual probation not monitoring. Yes there is good support here. I remember coming here the first time back in 2016. I was on probation from 2019 to 2022.

I ended up a Board order the second time due to companies have to report.  It was confidential.  You aren't the first two time offender.  You can make it through this.  You got it.  Don't look back, don't beat yourself up.  You are human.  We make mistakes.  

Thank you. Was the board harder on you the second time?

I don't know just yet what HR is going to do. I'm pretty sure I will know soon. I'm wondering if I need to go ahead and try to get into the monitoring program last time I just waited and let the board get a hold of me and I was on actual probation which wasn't confidential. I have a permanent mark on my record. It has history of probation on it, which is going to make it hard for me to get another job as it is.

1. You are going to be fired from work. Your DON has no power to preserve your job As It Relates to the Risk Management/HR/CEOs who will overrule your DON at the drop of a hat Regardless of how much that DON wants you to keep your job. The executives at your organization will NOT take the legal risk of keeping you since this is your second go around and you literally admitted diverting. 99 percent chance you will be fired.

2. You are going to be mandated to do an SUD eval, have your license likely temporarily suspended, be required to enter monitoring for 5 years, and then your license placed on probation in 3 months after they require you to very likely complete a PHP and/or IOP program. 

3. I wish you the best. Im praying for you. You will practice nursing again and you can recover from this, but its going to be a 5 year process.

4. Yes, I would immediately report to the monitoring program because you admitted diversion. It's done. You are guilty. They have the evidence you need. A lawyer will not get you out of this based on your admission of guilt (even if the test comes back negative). Admission of diversion is all the evidence they need.

Prayers sent your way. Get help. Get better, and yes, you will recover from this.

mississippiRN71 said:

Thank you. I'm just terrified 

I'm praying for you, this sounds hard and I'm praying it works out where you get the opportunity to do what is needed to get back working. I'm glad there are other people who have been through the same thing who are transparent and give helpful advice. 

@mississippiRN71

Is this currently going on or was this previously?  May seem like a stupid question but my dates for posting have been sorting all kinds of crazy.  I can't private message without paying $30 bucks or making certain number of riveting posts.  

Im currently only 6 months in, for the wonderful state of MS (took them almost 3 years.....which I had already completed court ordered 1.5/2 year probation program) and had finally started getting my life back....then the board contacts me 4 months before that is over and starts a new one all over again.  I don't know if you can send me a message or not.  Any tips or support ppl can offer each other through this absolutely ridiculous money making (cant work any OT or have a 2nd job but make sure you show up for your $89/ea tests minimum of 1 but max of 3 times a month) especially in the same state cant hurt!!

Wishing everyone well and keep laughing through the misery.  It won't last forever!!

FormerBROKENrn said:

@mississippiRN71

Is this currently going on or was this previously?  May seem like a stupid question but my dates for posting have been sorting all kinds of crazy.  I can't private message without paying $30 bucks or making certain number of riveting posts.  

 

Im currently only 6 months in, for the wonderful state of MS (took them almost 3 years.....which I had already completed court ordered 1.5/2 year probation program) and had finally started getting my life back....then the board contacts me 4 months before that is over and starts a new one all over again.  I don't know if you can send me a message or not.  Any tips or support ppl can offer each other through this absolutely ridiculous money making (cant work any OT or have a 2nd job but make sure you show up for your $89/ea tests minimum of 1 but max of 3 times a month) especially in the same state cant hurt!!

 

 

Wishing everyone well and keep laughing through the misery.  It won't last forever!!

I know one person asked to just subtract the time from court monitoring from the monitoring as they were completing the court ones when they got the monitoring agreement.  They had to test for both 

I wish it would have been that easy.  I had the director of the court program write letters, my counselors from the year of outpt counseling/recovery (more ptsd covid coping related than drug addiction but regardless of what led to or what happened......I needed help) group I attended on my own.  My current employer (that I had been with for 2 years when they finally contacted me) wrote letters on my behalf.  It didn't matter.

I had been through a year of outpt therapy with weekly to biweekly drug screens, I was up front with my new job about everything from the start so they asked me to take random drug screens for the first year (of  course I complied), and the 2 years of the pretrial program for the court (charged me with felony that I still have to get expunged but costs 5000). I had never been in any trouble.  Not even a ticket or any employment problems.  But even after the 3 years of monitoring (between the courts, myself, and my job) Im starting all over.  

I know I did the crime and violated the trust of everyone I know but unless you actually worked a covid floor for 2 years during the start until the "end" of the initial pandemic....you can't understand what I mean when I say I was broken.  A shell of my former self going through motions with absolutely NO emotions.   I had turned off everything to get through it and when it was over and I couldnt turn the emotions back on I freaked out.     I don't even remember alot of the 2 months of stupidity that happened before but the fact that we all saw and dealt with things that would change us forever (I don't know about others but my job offered no therapy or time off for taking care of ourselves) was not taken into account during deciding my punishment. 

The first contact I had was the ASP.   Took them 3 years and I had 5 days to agree or have a hearing.  They determined my punishment before having any information on what I had done to better myself the time between.  And not lessening anyone's problems or blaming covid....but it definitely was a major contributing factor that should have been taken into consideration. 

Sorry, I ramble.  Just frustrating and the checking in everyday for the next 4.5 years (already got 6 months down)  is stomach turning.  

I'm so sorry.  I know what you mean.  Praying for you ?