advice on what to do

Who told you that?

Is your union involved? Is there documentation to back this claim up?

I'm not sure if this is a serious post or not, and the main reason I think this is because I saw that your profile information states the following:

Interests

I was below average

Years Exp.

doesn't make a difference

If this is serious, and you really do feel like you are a "bad nurse", I am terribly sorry you feel this way. It must be hard feeling like this after years of educating yourself and the hard work you put into it. If you feel that you don't fit in, or aren't being a "good nurse", maybe you could consider looking elsewhere for an area of nursing where you feel more at ease, and CAN use your skills, as a person, as a worker.

There are lots of choices out there for you to choose from. Please don't give up; give it a shot and try something new instead! But try not to think that you have to "quit" nursing all together.

Good luck in the future. I'm sure you will find something that works for you.

Take care. :)

it is a serious post, I am not feeling sorry for myself. I don't really have any support. so ...sorry ...that I am over emotional.

I have been nursing 'off and on' for 6 years. I never stayed long enough at any one area because of bullies causing me to quit the job.

so, every where I go I don't really catch on fast. I am scard of nursing, and bullies, and being blamed for everything.

I am below average in intellect.

If you are miserable just try somethign else. Not being great at one thing doesn't mean you will be terrible at something else.

Being a nurse is just one of a million things you can do!

it is a serious post, I am not feeling sorry for myself. I don't really have any support. so ...sorry ...that I am over emotional.

I have been nursing 'off and on' for 6 years. I never stayed long enough at any one area because of bullies causing me to quit the job.

so, every where I go I don't really catch on fast. I am scard of nursing, and bullies, and being blamed for everything.

I am below average in intellect.

This sounds lika pity party. You don't make it through either level of nursing school being below average in intellect.

Put on your big girl panties and make a commitment to stay on one unit long enough to learn your job. How long are you given for buddy shifts? The average is a weeks worth and you should have brought your basic nursing knowledge with you to the job.

thanks for reading my note, and thanks for the support. Getting a response is some form of support.

I wanted to write details of my situation, in hopes of getting support in the right area, ----not to look for pity.

I have been nursing 'off and on' for 6 years. I never stayed long enough at any one area because of bullies causing me to quit the job.

Look deep inside yourself and figure out why this is occurring. When we point blame at someone or something there are 3 fingers pointing at ourselves.

I recently started on a new unit and I will admit that there were times that I didn't get along with other staff. I know my personality can be grating on others, I know how my words or actions may seem to be demanding, mostly I know me when I'm under stress.

But I did survive, I did become accepted and part of the team because I am humble and know when and how to apologize.

I think that a big problem was I did not know how to defend myself, so the bullying escalated.

I guess they thought that they could walk all over me.

Also, the unit was difficult for me, and I think the other nurses thought I constantly asked for help. However, I was a new grad , and put into a specialty unit, and that was hard for me.

The manager just hired anyone to 'fill the spot'. (It was a 'problem' unit with a lot of turnover, and a lot of bad rumours-which were true).

I thought I would ask less questions if I tried a slower area of nursing.

Where I am now, I find I still ask lots of questions, but I am a little bit more independent. However, there are nurses that I feel still dislike helping me.

My learning curve is quite different from others- my nursing school tried to help).

I feel I am learning a lot, about my weaknesses and social skills etc. I hope the nurses like me. But I don't think so.

I do a lot of at home studying when I am not working. Reading books over and over to increase my knowledge and skills.

Maybe I need to make another change, to another area of nursing, that is even easier for me than where I am now.