I am a CNA presently, and I have been accepted into nursing school. I am a bit concerned about my PTSD and how to handle OB/Peds rotation. I lost a baby about 4 years ago to hypoplastic left heart syndrome and she died in my arms shortly after being born. I left nursing school when I was preg with her knowing I wouldn't be able to continue in the first half of the first year. I retook prereqs this last year since requirements have changed.
That being said I have had PTSD since the loss. It is far better than it started. I am not an any meds and cope very well. I haven't been on meds all year. It was not always so easy to cope with. I still get anxiety once in a while but its manageable and maybe a panic attack once a year. Most people don't even realize what going on, I cope well with my daily life. Nursing school isn't exactly daily life though.
But I am a bit concerned about working in the OB with newborns and seeing sick babies, babies in pain ect. I just know that is going to be rough. I work in LTC and have been with many people while they passed, even given CPR with nurses and had them pass, and I have been fine. But babies seem to do me in. The thought of babies or small kids passing...yuck. I will be up all night with horrible dreams. I am capable in the moment, I don't freeze, or panic but after is when the problems happen. It takes me a good week to shake off all the symptoms, reliving type dreams about my loss, inability to focus, highly emotional, depression ect...
I am very committed to being a nurse. I have the drive and motivation. I am not sure how to deal with this ONE aspect.
The program I am starting has had a reputation for singling people out and removing them from the program. They have been very very tough. They were involved in a lawsuit this past spring and over the summer forced ALL of the nursing staff into early retirement and have hired a completely new staff. I know nothing about the new staff.
Should I say something ahead of time as the OB rotation begins that way if there is a still born baby or something that might affect me adversely I can be excused from that patient? Would it be in my best interest to suck it up and stay quiet just get through it however I best can? I know that my actions even with PTSD won't adversely affect patient care, but it will affect me.
I know I am just starting and I have a ways to go but thinking of a plan ahead of time sometimes helps me let it go and focus on the now.
Thanks!
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I am a CNA presently, and I have been accepted into nursing school. I am a bit concerned about my PTSD and how to handle OB/Peds rotation. I lost a baby about 4 years ago to hypoplastic left heart syndrome and she died in my arms shortly after being born. I left nursing school when I was preg with her knowing I wouldn't be able to continue in the first half of the first year. I retook prereqs this last year since requirements have changed.
That being said I have had PTSD since the loss. It is far better than it started. I am not an any meds and cope very well. I haven't been on meds all year. It was not always so easy to cope with. I still get anxiety once in a while but its manageable and maybe a panic attack once a year. Most people don't even realize what going on, I cope well with my daily life. Nursing school isn't exactly daily life though.
But I am a bit concerned about working in the OB with newborns and seeing sick babies, babies in pain ect. I just know that is going to be rough. I work in LTC and have been with many people while they passed, even given CPR with nurses and had them pass, and I have been fine. But babies seem to do me in. The thought of babies or small kids passing...yuck. I will be up all night with horrible dreams. I am capable in the moment, I don't freeze, or panic but after is when the problems happen. It takes me a good week to shake off all the symptoms, reliving type dreams about my loss, inability to focus, highly emotional, depression ect...
I am very committed to being a nurse. I have the drive and motivation. I am not sure how to deal with this ONE aspect.
The program I am starting has had a reputation for singling people out and removing them from the program. They have been very very tough. They were involved in a lawsuit this past spring and over the summer forced ALL of the nursing staff into early retirement and have hired a completely new staff. I know nothing about the new staff.
Should I say something ahead of time as the OB rotation begins that way if there is a still born baby or something that might affect me adversely I can be excused from that patient? Would it be in my best interest to suck it up and stay quiet just get through it however I best can? I know that my actions even with PTSD won't adversely affect patient care, but it will affect me.
I know I am just starting and I have a ways to go but thinking of a plan ahead of time sometimes helps me let it go and focus on the now.
Thanks!