nole123

First of all,, (((((((((((((((((Hug)))))))))))))))))) for YOU. Iam Sorry that we as human beings, Nurse, Lawyer, Cook, Babysitter, whatever profession/position we choose to do............to try and make it HARD for those that are working hard and trying to accomplish their goal. People as we all know (some not all by the way :) ......... are not always nice and sometimes unfortunately, they will do whatever it takes to make them look good, make You look bad (AKA Marter'), miserable with their own life resulting in ATTEMPTING to try and ruin anothers. WE HAVE ALL BEEN THERE ONCE regardless of what profession we go into. We must remember that and often times its forgotten. I GIVE YOU PRAISE AND ENCOURAGEMENT FOR EVENING GOING TO NURSING SCHOOL. It is taxing and exhausting BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT it will pay off. I know its hard to see right now with all the obstacles and challenges that you may face, but PLEASE hang in there. You will Make it and will be a Fantastic Nurse because of the experiences you are going through. Try and think of this way - "the more challenges you face, there is a reason behind it and that is in my opinion to make you stronger and be a wonderful Nurse". Also, this is only temporarily as hard as it is Iam sure of to have to face that right now because its emotionally exhausting, but I can guarantee that this is Temporarily and will not last. Learn as much as you CAN..............and one of my favorite sayings is "Kill them with KINDNESS". You can never go wrong. Try your hardest to "tune the negative out". "Pick your battles", so to speak. As far as not documenting or this and that (the other nurses are referring to), what I would do is make yourself notes on your sheet after you do each assessment, so then when you finally have a chance to Document it on the actual assessment form, you can refer to your paper if you have to. And, you can also say to your instructor or whom ever it may be, (yes, I didnt chart it YET, but its here (see) on my paper and Iam going to do it. DOCUMENT, DOCUMENT and Document........... Unfortunately, we have to protect ourselves even from our "own" so to speak. Lastly, I would like to say be open to constructive criticism (spell right? :) Iam not saying you are not, but just be a SPONGE, demonstrate that passion that you really want to learn (not that you are not). This will show to others and will also demonstrate that you "need" their help as well.. Sometimes, its a psychological game because that is Just life...ya know? PLEASE dont Give up. You have worked so hard and so long to get where you are at. If Nursing wasnt something you had a burning passion for overall, you would of not taken the time to even thread what you posted. Also, regardless of where you go with your profession in Nursing terms, people will always be "people". You will meet some wonderful mentors, genuine people and then you will meet not so nice and unwillingly to help you"... I thought myself of giving up many many times and in fact I thought it would be different and easier so to speak to enter into a new area of nursing to find myself 4 yrs later BORED and still having that desire to go back to floor nursing. I finally went back after 5 yrs and regretting that I left (to early) because of my own "fear of failure" or not feeling like Iam good enough. I am often times a perfectionist (not literally), but anal retentive, I should say.. LOL... Now, Iam back in hospital working on a step down unit and genuinely for the first time since I graduated, feel good and learning more NOW than ever. (fyi I graduated 1998).... SO to wrap this UP..... DONT GIVE UP... and if you ever want to chat please email me or respond to this thread. I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST and Remember, Tune yourself out (try at least) and "kill em with kindess" GOOD LUCK ! Michelle....

After reading your post, a lot of different thoughts came to my mind...First, the hospital that offered you a " day position", was this in writing?? Also, is it a Union or Non-union hospital?? In any event, its basically all how you see it. You seem to be set on working days and I dont blame you at all. You have to do what works Best for you and your life. Nightshift actually in my opinion is a great shift (if you can stay up). I think its good because you in someways have more learning opportunity typically on nights. You are able to process and put the picture together so to speak. It doesnt always work this way, but there all in all is more downtime with nights. I also agree that you should have never been offered verbally or in writing a day position and then have it be yanked under you, probably after you planned it and were excited about it. What a disappointment. In my opinion, it was NOT very professional of your manager and it shows lack of leadership and respect for her/his fellow nurses that are on board in that unit. Iam not sure even if you were offered a day position again, would I myself want to work for that manager. That is kind of a sign or would at least be to me... GOOD LUCK IN EVERYTHING!!! N

I wanted to wish you lots of luck and I hope you like Florida. I actually obtained my Fl. nursing lic approx. 9-04 and it actually wasn't all that difficult. It was more getting all this "paperwork and fulfilling what they require" what can make you dizzy.. :) I had to get a complete physical, go to police station to obtain fingerprints, contact my initial nursing board via phone and writing for verification and a little bit of odds and ends of things. I found I had to really be the "pull horse" per say in helping the process in obtaining my license to practice in FL. All in all, though looking back, it wasn't that big of a pain. :) If you have any questions, please dont hesitate to ask. Again, GOOD LUCK! Nicole

Hello. If you have not taken anything ,then you need to get some answers from someone that can protect your reputation. People are so quick to judge and some just want to "bust" you and if you're innocent, then its a real shame people are out there in this type of power,,,but in any event,,,, I, first would really think back and try and remember if you took ANYTHING that contained Benzo's in the drug. Perhaps theres a prescribed medication that you took and w/out you realizing it you didnt know it had the content in it, so really try and reflect on that....Then if nothing you can think of, then of course you need protection for yourself, your license, your future. I would contact a lawyer not associated with your place of employment that is familiar with these issues. please feel free to pm me if you have any further questions. Also, I would have someone be with you in terms of legal aspect for this "meeting". You have to look out for yourself because nobody else will. That is just life. Especially when you are innocent. Best of luck to you. Thanks, Michelle...

On the generalized spectrum of things, yes its normal to feel depressed and be stressed, but it doesnt make it any easier. I have been a nurse for approx. 7 yrs and recently re-entered the hospital again. Oh Boy! I have been stressed and depressed as well. Iam trying to balance and find my way so to speak in my new position and it isnt easy. Iam a person that is my own worse critic and this can set you up to fail if you let it. I often do "reality checks" otherwise, I feel even more overwhelmed. It seems most shifts I work, I have the real heavy patients, ones that require SO MUCH of your time that I wish I could give and I try to give it until Iam feeling completely exhausted emotionally....I then go home and collapse. I try so hard to please my patients, please myself, stay on top of everything, try to cause no waves. When you are new at a job, you want to be liked obviously and not disliked. Sometimes, that is tested when you feel like you are being tested ALL THE TIME. My other nurse friends tell me it takes "time" and eventually you will feel more secure/comfortable in the position... I hope so!!! I get these patients sometimes that are very complex and you dont have the TIME to research their multitude of diseases/conditions, etc. So, sometimes I leave feeling unfulfilled. I am often at home reading up on things to better educate myself. In my opinion, nursing school doesnt prepare you for the nursing world, it somewhat pads the surface lightly and then your'e sent off to swim and hope you make it. Sometimes, I really dont feel like Iam good enough to be totally honest. Iam told the opposite by people, but I dont see what they see, so Iam constantly hard on myself. So, I have to work on this and it will take time.. But, anyone out there feeling similar feelings whether you are a student, new nurse, experienced nurse, whatever......we are HUMAN BEINGS and we have to remember that. We are not perfect and we all make mistakes; important thing is we learn from them and try to be better next time. Make sense to anyone??