Yodalady79

I recently accepted a job as an ANM. I was an ANM at another facility. Despite my prior experience, I am still learning the facility. I started there in July of this year. I have been a RN for 10 years in May. My nurse manager told me to talk less because it can be used against me. I get that. I am trying to be myself (although a bit more of a quieter, more observant persom). I try to think before I say anything. Why did I go to a meeting with a room full of managers and ask if the purpose of the group was for just a lot of talking with no action or if they did research, executed their findings, and reassessed in regards to evidence based practice for nursing? The group leader mentioned shared governance which was actually a group where presenters talk on management issues. The Unit Practice Council does the evidence based practice (found that out). I remember reverting back to an old habit of thinking out loud as I spoke. It was not a good look. I apologized to the leader of the group for my poor wording, telling her I was very new to the facility and role. Not an excuse, I know. I did want to take ownership for that though. I beat myself up for not being better at communication than I am. I wonder why it does not come more naturally. I am going to have to put this behind me as a learning experience and move forward. I am not looking for false reassurance. I just wonder if I am alone in feeling this way.

I have been a medical surgical telemetry nurse for five years now.