HANG IN THERE! IT WILL GET BETTER! I know from experience. A similar thing happened to me just out of school. I was a 22 year old new graduate from a (locally) prestigious private university with a BSN and "Cum Laude" honors. I applied at the local Trauma II hospital where I was employed at the time as a CNA with years of experience in med-surg and acute care psych. I was immediately accepted. I started with an in house nurse residency program for new grads and did well. I was given 6 different preceptors at the same time, and a whirlwind of activity later, I was on extended orientation for "Not improving enough". This then spiraled into being terminated and being "banned from the premise of this facility except in the case of medical emergency for 1 year" due to being, "unprofessional and unsafe". I was devastated. I couldn't understand. 5 of my 6 preceptors stated that I was ready to come off orientation. What went wrong?? Was I that bad of a nurse?? Would I ever get hired again? How could I ever see my classmates and explain why I was not working at the job I told them I was at? How would I provide for my family? Was I a terrible husband to my new wife? Was I a loser? Would I ever be able to do anything with my career? All these questions and more poured through my head. Thankfully, I had stocked up on PTO / vacation hours throughout 4 years of nursing school, which supported my wife and I for about 4 weeks of unemployment before that ran dry. My wife was very supportive and understanding. I looked around for any kind of work I could get ahold of with the help of another nurse friend of mine. I landed an entry level staff RN position at a local nursing home on the dementia unit. "There, there, it's all better now" everyone told me. No, it wasn't! How could they not understand??!! Everyone who walked by me knew I was FIRED! The horror! What a terrible nurse and person! Well, I was thrown onto the floor on my own with 2 weeks orientation and floundered and fought my way into stability at my new job. A massive paycut, a loss of prestige... but a job nonetheless. I eventually caught the eye of the charge nurse and even the DON, who moved me into other roles around the nursing home. Within 5 months, I was a charge / supervisor RN. I felt good about myself - maybe I'm not a complete loser and failure. Well, fate had other plans once again... My wife and I were going to have a baby! Exciting news, but we needed more income. So, just because I had nothing else to do on my down time, I began throwing my newly redecorated resume around at local hospitals. Shot down several times, occasionally didn't even receive a return call. Then, out of the blue, my wife began clinicals (radiation technologist) at a rural hospital about 40 miles away. I decided to look at their website. There was a part time ER position open. Required years of experience, etc., etc. Well, I had time on my hands so I emailed my resume and reference list, as well as a fancy cover letter. within a week I had an interview, and a job offer 4 days later. Emergency nursing was a dream job of mine! I couldn't believe it. I'm now almost done with orientation (only a couple weeks to go) and everything is going amazing! I'm working full time hours even, with a significant pay raise from even my initial job! The baby is due in 4 weeks and I just turned 25. Time flies! My point with this long, drawn out, obnoxious story of mine, is that, it really all works out. In talking with many, many nurses from multiple states, I have found out the following: - Hospitals and care facilities will hire RN's with terminations on their records. Most of the time it is because of a "less than ideal fit" between the facility and the RN or interpersonal conflict (which turned out to be the case with my first job, I later found out. And let's just say karma has been served. For the sake of professionalism and ethics, I won't name the facility / persons involved or what I later found out led to my termination). - RN's are people too. No one is good at everything. Find your niche. Keep looking. You WILL find something you love. You may be bad at one kind of nursing, but then turn around and find an area you ABSOLUTELY LOVE!! - Never give up. Just keep swimming, swimming... ... You'll eventually find Nemo. - Tasky things (starting IV's, catheter care, etc) can be taught easily. A good bedside manner and a professional attitude shows the minute you open your mouth and extend your hand to a potential employer. THIS is harder to find than you think, and is invaluable! - Network! Make as many friends that are RN's as you can! They will help you later - and you can help them! - Stand up for yourself. As an RN, you are an advocate for your patient. How can you properly advocate for your patients if you are unable or unwilling to advocate for yourself? If you are aware of something / someone that is compromising your ability to provide the best care for your patients. End it. Now. Take the person aside, address the issue with leadership, find another job. And do it ASAP. You will suffer if you don't. Harsh life lesson, but it's true. - Working at a nursing home is not the end of the world. Having said that, make sure you at least tour the facility before accepting any job offers. There are stellar nursing homes I would be honored to work for... and then there are others. I lucked out and found the former. A few months of nursing home experience (at a good facility) will give you SOO MUCH experience and may help you gain back some confidence. You work with and learn the same patients day in and day out. You get a routine down, you learn to look for the little things while managing the big picture (much bigger than at a hospital), you learn how to delegate and discipline staff - well. If you do want to get back into acute care, make your stay in LTC about a year. A whole lot longer than that may make you look less pleasing to an acute care facility. - Offer a helping hand to anyone who has been terminated. It doesn't have to be huge (and no money - it's awkward for both parties). Offer to help with the resume, job search, babysitting, or even just hang out and talk. Let me tell you, as a male (I'm sure this is true for you gals, too) bowling and a beer with a friend and talking everything out helped more than anything else. - Nursing (and healthcare in general) is a cutthroat field. Stay strong and tough out the first year. After that, you'll love your job! End of my rant. I could go on forever, but I wont. The whole experience has made me a better, more humble nurse and human being. I love helping out people who have run into this misfortune. It sounds awfully cheesy now, but, OP, it WILL work out for the better. You may not see it now, but it will. I really wish you all the best in finding the perfect job. I unfortunately do not have the life experience to give advice on the marital issues, but I wish you the best of luck and God's wisdom in knowing what to do.