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I would try to highlight all of my credentials. Like if you are certified in Basic Life Support, or you are apart of your local nursing organizations, that would be helpful. Also try to list you agency work. If an interviewer asks why you have never worked in staff nursing you can always say that you find agency work at the time to be more flexible and thats what you needed at the time. Good luck to you!!!

I don't think I am going to even bother with this company any longer. Concentra did call me and did a phone interview, so if that went well they will be calling me. I am not going to worry about it anymore, I am just tired of worring about things. Its driving me insane.

I know your pain all too well. This same thing happened to me just 2 months earlier. The manager of the clinic that I worked for didn't like me from the start I think and just sabotaged my job there. My preceptor told her that I wasn't catching on and I was asking too many questions. I to asked how they did things because every facility had their own protoclos for doing things and they all was like the standards of care don't change but when I did care that was the standard, it would be wrong. I was bullied and harrassed there, and when I brought it to the attention of the administrator, she just told me to quit because it just wasn't a good fit. I had no say so what so ever and I was pushed out of a very good job. Now I have no way to pay my house note and I am so broke I can't even pay attention. As depressed as I am, I know God has something great in store for me and if I would just hold on and be patient, I will see it come to fruitition. I am believing this for you as well. You went through school, and you passed your state boards. You are smart and competent than you will ever know. Don't let anyone take your sense of self away from you. God has brought you this far, and you have a ways to go yet. It may seem hopeless, but it always gets its darkest right before the big breakthru. Have faith and know that you just haven't found the right place where you are to be placed to do your life's work. God is using you, He chastens those that He loves the most. Reflect and learn from this, as I am trying to do and stay optimistic and faithful about the future. Sometimes we give our jobs too much power over our self esteem. We want to be reassusred, and we want to feel like we are making a difference, and we can. Just don't expect it to come from somebody else. Become your own cheerleader. Do the work that you was hired to do and keep it moving. You are not in a job to make friends or to have a fan club. Keep it cordial, and pleasant and do what it is that you came to do. That is all you can do. When you have done your best in a situation and still it is not enough, then you must hold your head high and go own somewhere else, and don't look back. You will make it. This is just a test to see how strong you really are. One day you are gonna look back on all of this and say, " That was a tough time, but some how I made it through". Keep the faith, and never let the enemy have power over you.

As if things couldn't get worse they did. I needed some inspiration today so I decided to go to night services at my church. I was feeling pretty renewed and inspired only to come home and find that some idiot has broken into my home and stole my dvd player and my kids play station 2. They ransacked my room looking for valuables but found nothing because I am still recovering from another break in at my home back in april. This is the second time this crap has happened. My house is going into foreclosure already and it isn't no point staying here and my home keeps getting broken into. I just don't know how much more of this I can take. I am at my wits end and I don't know what to do. I really need some prayers because I am just going absolutely crazy here. I couldn't get anymore depressed right about now. I don't understand why this kind of crap keeps happenning to me. I don't mess with anybody on this block, I don't talk to anybody, nobody from this street has been in my house or nothing. Why would somebody prey on a single mother and her kids? Why????

I am so upset. I lost my job Nov 29th, and then miraculously, I found another job and got hired in on December 13th. It is now Jan 17th and no one has even bothered to call me and tell me what I need to do to begin working. I have already been to orientation, and I have already filled out my pre-employment forms. I have been constantly calling these people and they always say, "I will give your message to such and such and they will give you a call back", only they never do. The lady that hired me said there was two positions available and that I could get which ever one I wanted and nobody has called me back. One of the positions was to be a manager over one of the assisted living facilities that they own and the other was for a medical assistant. Ofcourse I wanted the position to become a manager, because of the potential to grow within the company. I was scheduled to have an interview for that position because I had to go through another boss to get in, and a freak accident happened the morning of the interview. I locked my keys inside the car with the car running and had to get a tow truck to come and open the car for me. I always start the car up in the morning before I leave so the engine will be warm and the heat will warm up the car before I get in with the kids. I have a kill switch on the car so when I started it up it must have locked the doors automatically. I asked the lady that called me to schedule the interview what was her number incase I needed to contact her and when I called her to tell her about what had happened she didnt answer.I called like a hour before I had to be there, and I left two messages and called the corporate offices and told them and they left a message as well. After the tow truck got me in the car, I called the lady again and left another message and told her that I was coming up there anyway. I was there thirty minutes after the scheduled time and ofcourse she wasn't there. I didn't here from this lady until four hours later after my initial call and I had to call her again to finally get in touch with her because she hadn't by then called me. I told her everything from start to finish again because it was apparent that she didn't check her voicemail, and I asked could we reschedule our appointment. This was like in the first week of January mind you , and this place already said that I had a job effective December 13th. This wench tells me that the next available appointment wasn't until the week of the 21st. :angryfire :angryfire :angryfire I was sooo pissed off!!!! I had to explain to this lady that I was already hired in the company and everybody that I talked to acted like they didn't know anything and no one has returned any of my numerous calls. She puts me on hold to pull my file and then she comes back talking about that they hadn't recieved all of my references back from my past employers and that she didn't know who told me that I had a position there because they can't hire anyone in until all of the paperwork comes back in. I wouldn't give a rats butt, I was told that I had a position within the company. She said she would talk to her boss and they would be calling me. That was almost two weeks ago, if not two weeks already. No one called me back. I am almost three months behind on my house note and these damn people are playing with my livelyhood. I could have been on my merry way looking for another job, but I was waiting on them to call me in to work. I finally called them yesterday one last time, and I finally talks to the boss who said that they checked my police record and it came back that I did have a record and i needed a police clearance. That was the big hold up!!? No one couldn't have contacted me with the info so I could get them what they needed? I know this person has gotten my numerous messages and she couldn't call me back to tell me that? I am incensed!! I have never seen such unprofessionalism in my life. You have called me in for all these interviews, and had me coming up to the office filling out pre=employment forms and sitting through orientation, and all this other stuff, and you people couldn't even call me to keep me informed? I have done everything these people have asked me to do. I feel like kicking somebody's #$%&!!!! She didn't even apologize, she just said, "oh just bring in your police clearance and I have a position for you asap". I am just so angry, it seems like I can't catch a break at all. And the killing part of this all is that my police record is from being arrested for driving on a suspended license. I don't have any felonies at all. Sorry this is so long, I am just blowing off steam.

I read the book and I thought it was a very informative interesting read. It makes you kind of think outside of the box.

UPDATE: I am doing a little better than I was when I first posted. I found another job on the 13th of this month, so I am glad about that. I will not be doing my medical assisting duties, but it is better than what I was doing, with opportunities for advancement. I will be a manager over an assisted living facility. I haven't found out how much I will be making, but I should find all that out In January. I haven't heard from my mother since I put her out of here on the 8th of this month. I am okay with that because I need a break from her after that ordeal. Thanks everybody for your support, and I will keep everyone posted.

thank you for your advice, its greatly appreciated.

Thank you for those words of encouragement.

Thank you to everyone who posted to this. I have not spoken to my mother since I put her out two days ago. I hope she got home safely, but I am not going to call her or anything. My son snuck and called his father yesterday. I was angry, but what could I do. He is a child and he loves his father no matter how much of a deadbeat he is. I am just angry that I am in this situation and I am praying to God everyday that I find a permanent solution really fast. I don't want to have to ask or depend on anyone or anything. Thank you again everybody for your opinions and prayers, they are greaty appreciated.

Thank you for your words of wisdom and encouragement. I really appreciate just the time you took to post this. I am happy to say that me and mom got into a heated argument and I had to put her out. She has money and I even made sure she had gloves, but I told her she had to go. She was being verbally abusive to me and I just couldn't take it anymore. My whole childhood has been abusive thanks to her. I was taken out of the house by child protective services because her husband at the time punched me in the mouth and knocked out my two front teeth( Now you know who wrote the song"All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth"!!!) when I was 13 years old. I have been on my own since I was thirteen going in and out of foster homes and girls homes, and now, I am just tired of the whole thing. I love my mother I really do, but I have never felt normal because of her. I know she is sick and I don't want to take her illness out on her per se, but now, I just don't know. I am tired of my whole family to tell you the truth. Last year my grandmother was living here. Now I am in a time of need and I can't ask nobody in my family for nothing. Nobody can help me, but when they need help I am always helping out. I was talking to my ex-stepfather, yes the same man who knocked out my teeth, and he said he can understand me not wanting her to come back over here anymore, but don't turn my back on her because she needs her family. I don't want to be bothered with her period, not for a while. Its a shame that I can talk to a man that used to beat the crap out of me more than I can talk to my own mother. He was on drugs during that time and has since came off of them and is trying to raise my little brothers by himself, so I have more respect for him than my mother because regardless of what he did to me, atleast he did get his act together, if not for him for the sake of my little brothers. I have soo much to do, sort through, I have to find me a job before I get but out of my house. I wish I was renting, then atleast I wouldn't owe tens of thousands of dollars if I didn't pay my rent, I have a house note, and I don't want to lose my house. I will figure out something.

The kids are five and the oldest will be eight next Tuesday.

No his mother doesn't care and you know what, I don't expect her to. These are my children, she knows all about the situation between me and him. She doesn't think that I should have put the child support order out on him, and since I did, I don't care about him and I am trying to hinder his success. So I don't go to her for advice or help about him because she doesn't give a damn one way or another anyway. I put a child support order out on him in 2003 and I have received from him maybe about 500 dollars in almost three years. So I give up on that. I recieved a notice in the mail from the Friend of the Court stating that they were planning on suspending his drivers license because he owes over five thousand dollars in back child support. Whether I see any of the money remains to be unseen. But, I have done my part, if he chooses to not pay then thats on him, but he can't come over here and see nobody. My kids need shoes and clothes, they are growing out of their school uniforms, I don't have anything to say to him or his family because they don't help with the children anyway.

Thank you everybody for your opinions and your concerns for me. You guys are awesome, I really appreciate what everyone had to say. I just don't know what to do. I come from the kind of community where you don't turn your back on your parents, and that is what is making this so hard. My mom has done a lot of unspeakable things to me, but everytime I try to get rid of her, she'll call and apologize and say she is sorry or start crying. I was trying to hang in there and just deal with it until today because her lights are back on and she is going home. So today is her last day here. I love my children and I am trying to do whats best for them too, I just didn't want to cause a big scene. I know it sounds stupid, it sounds that way to me, I just don't want her to feel that I don't love her. I know that if this ever happens again she cannot come back here. I am the oldest sibling so there is no where else she could go. My brothers are 12 and 14, and my step father has custody of them. He won't allow her to stay over there. I suppose because he knew I would let her come over here. I have already told the kids father to not call my house anymore. So far he hasn't called, but one of the kids birthdays is coming up along with Christmas, and I know he will be calling again. I am steadily job hunting and trying to find something. I will consider welfare, I am really trying to avoid that but I have to do what I have to do. I feel a little better about things. Sometimes I just feel like I am the only person going through this. I have been looking for a medical assisting job for the last five years. I can't find one. All I want is a good job so I can keep my bills paid and keep my children clothed and fed, so I can finish school. I have just been having the worst luck with finding and keeping a job. I have to do something, I am not one to just sit around and cry, but right now I am just at a loss for words, I am just fed up, and tired. I guess everybody feels that way one way or another at times.

I am soo tired. I had to quit a very good job last week because I was forced out by some other co-workers, my mom is living with me and she is stressing me out, and my childrens father isn't helping me support them at all. It is about to be Christmas and I don't know how I am going to pay my house note for this month let alone have a Christmas for my children. Let me start from the beginning. My mom had to come stay with me for about three weeks because she is mentally ill and hasn't paid any of her bills and her lights and phone was cut off. My mom also abuses illegal drugs, so that was another reason why the bills wasn't paid, because she was spending all her money on dope. She is non compliant with her treatment regimen, and her living with me has been absolute hell. She cusses and talks to herself, she argues with the tv, I can't even discipline my children around her or she will butt in. She has eaten up all the food and dranked up all the drink, and she knows I don't have any money to be buying food and she hasn't offered to help in any way(what did I expect, she is mentally ill). I have caught her smoking dope out in the cold in my backyard, she is in and out of the house all day and night. I called the crisis line and asked them what should I do, and they said to call the police on her. I didn't want to do that because I didn't want to go through the motions of her crying, my children crying, and me just feeling like the total bad guy in all of this. I am trying to help her, but my patience has ran thin with her. She knows she needs help but she refuses to get it. She has a history with mental illness, she has been hospitalized for this before. She is currently receiving disability for it, so I can't see why she can't get the help that she needs. If I have her put in the hospital, she will be out in 72 hours or less. My mother used to be a psyche nurse coincidentally and she knows how to work the system and make it so she doesn't appear too crazy. Then, my children's father doesn't help me with them what so ever. He doesn't come and see them when he is supposed to, he isn't finacially supportive at all. I have been dealing with his harassing text messages and phone calls of him calling me evil dumb b@#$%, and other unmentionables, while I am struggling to take care of our children by myself. I have told him not to call or come over for the kids if he can't come and see them on the days we agreed he would see them. I have asked for some money from him and he tells me to wait on my child support check, which I haven't recieved since I put the order out in 2003 because he hasn't paid anything. And then the courts only ordered him to pay a measly $265 dollars a month, like that is going to help me. My gas bill is more than that. He owes me over $5000 dollars and I am the bad guy because I put the order out on him thats forcing him to pay the support at a set time not when he feels like paying it. I wouldn't even have done that if he was giving me something in the first place. Then to put the icing on the cake, he tells my kids that he is coming home knowing full well that thats not going to happen and he said that knowing how the kids feel about us breaking up. He knows the kids want him to come back home, and he knows thats not going to happen, and he tells them that?!!! I can't even go to school half way because I am always out trying to either work or find work, and he is living over his moms house getting over like a fat rat, with no bills to pay or any responsibilities. All I want to do is find some kind of decent paying work so I can finish school and become a nurse. That is all I want to do. I have absolutely no support system what so ever, and I am just sick of even trying because it seems like I can't even catch a break. I have nothing right now except my children and we might be out in the cold by next month if I don't come up with something fast. I am soo tired of dodging axes.I have no zest for life anymore . I am just plain old tired and worn out. I have ulcers do to stress, my hair is falling out, my stomach stays upset. I can't even cry, I tried to make myself cry hoping that I would feel better, but I can't . I am tired of crying, I have cried enough to the point where I can't even allow myself to feel anymore. I have even tried dating and all I seem to find are toads. I have been single for three years and I still haven't found anybody worth giving the time of day. I know this is long, thanks for reading.

I was very young when I had my first child. I got pregnant when I was 15, and had him when I was 16. I got pregnant again with baby number two when I was 19. I don't reccomend getting pregnant that young, and I certainly did have a pretty tough time some days, but I made the best of my situation. I am now 24 and I am doing alright for myself. I finished highschool, and I am currently attending college. I bought my home when I was 20, and I did it all all by myself. I haven't had the pleasure of having a supportive husband. I think the ideal age to have a child is 32. You know a little bit more, you should be established in some type of career, and basically happy and settled. Thats my take on things.

I think that is a pretty good idea. If you think you should stick to things that you are familiar with until you start your job in Feb, then by all means do that. I can understand you being nervous about htis new job. You are starting your career, and this is a great time for you. Just be encouraged and know that you will adapt, and a year from now you will be thinking, " I don't even know why I was so worried cause I am a great nurse now!!!"

I would say that to tell him what his weaknesses are, but don't make him feel bad about his performance. When we start something new, we all have a tendency to try to overacheive, and try to make the less mistakes posible. He may be very well aware of his less than perfect job performance and just may need some reassurance and some tips on how to make his shift run a little smoothly. I think its wonderful that you would even go out of your way to post this to look for more ways to help this nurse be successful in his career. I think you are an excellent supervisor for doing this.

Yeah, well I am still fighting, they had no right to treat me the way that they did. I am tired of searching for jobs. I have two children and a house note to pay for. I am flat broke and I have so many bills that I don't know what I am going to do. Thanks for your support.

The patient was d/c'ed from the ER and was to follow up with the clinic for further treatment. The clinic that I work at serves the uninsured and the underpriviliged, so alot of these patients don't have any money and they are very sick. So I just don't know what to do. Besides that I had to file a grievance with the administrative office because of the manager and the other MA's treatment of me. I called to tell them that I wasn't returning yesterday and I called this morning to let them know that I wasn't coming in today because I didn't want to come back until I had the grievance meeting. When I called to call in today, the manager asked me why was I calling her because I had already established that I wasn't coming back. I told her that thats not what I said and she further stated that that is what I said to her and she wished me well and hung up on me. Even if I could go back to work, I wouldn't want to go back there because it was a problem from day one. I don't understand how people can look at themselves in the mirror everyday and not be ashamed of themselves. So so much for that. Thank you all for your support, I really got some great ideas and I did try to out them to use, unfortunately it didn't work. I still do welcome any other comments, I greatly appreciate everybody's input.

Today was by far the worst day ever. I wound up leaving work early for the second time today because of the way things were going. My current preceptor was very rude and hostile today, again. A couple of weeks ago, I came to work and did the things that I usually do at the start of the day. Let me say that they do things very structured there, so there are only some things that I can do and some things that I can't. So, to not just be standing around, I do some incomplete charts, restock the exam rooms, and any other busy work that needs to be done. So, after I got through doing what I was supposed to do and could find nothing else for me to do, I went to my preceptor and I asked her did she have anything else for me to do. She told me no. So I am left to walk around and basically look like a dunder head. My first mistake that day was the fact that I didn't go to the RN manager, and ask her what should I do. Ofcourse the RN manager caught me standing around looking bewildered and she asked me what am I doing just standing around. She brought me to the preceptor, and asked her did she tell me that there was nothing to do. The preceptor said yes she did because there was nothing for me to do which she could think of. Then she says that I could have stamped the refferals, and all this other crap that she could have told me to do when I asked her. So after I was given my assignment, the rn manager said, "Now you should'nt be bored". She asked me by the way prior to stating that I should'nt be standing around was I bored. I shook my head yes, and smiled because I thought she was joking. Okay so today, when the patients started coming in, I asked my preceptor could I vital the next patient. She says, "Yeah go ahead because we would'nt want you to be bored". So I told her that I was not bored. So then she says thats what I told the RN manager. I did'nt say anything else, I took the chart from her and I vitaled the next patient. Then another situation that happened was the doctor walked in on me doing the vitals of another patient and gave me a verbal order to give a patient a dressing wrap. When I came out of the vital room with the patient, I went to the doctor and I pulled out my note pad and asked her to repeat to me what kind of dressing she wanted. The doctor said that my preceptor told her that I was'nt experienced with dressing changes so the preceptor would be doing the procedure. So when I ran back into my preceptor, she asked me why was'nt I getting the supplies, and I told her what the doctor told me. So she told me that I WILL be doing the dressing change and she further stated that how was I going to get the experience if I don't do the procedures. So I went and gathered what I needed, there was some things that I couldnt find so I went back to the preceptor and asked her where the supplies was. So she told me where the supplies where at, she knew that I was'nt experienced with dressing changes and she purposely set me up to fail. She did'nt tell me where to find the dressings at, she didn't tell me how to apply the dressing, or how she wanted the dressing applied or anything. So we went in to the room with the patient and I was asking her step by step how to apply the dressing, when she starts yelling at me in front of the patient. I held my peace and I applied the dressing as best as I could. Unsatisfied with my performance she took the ace wrap and completed the rest of the procedure because I didn't wrap the wrap around the thumb first, excuse me for not being able to perform well in a hostile environment. I then went out and found the RN manager and told her that I needed to talk to her. Actually I went to her before the dressing change incident happened, but my preceptor said to tell the manager that I am doing a dressing change and that I will meet with her after I finish what I am doing. So after the dressing change the manager brought me and the preceptor into the lunchroom. I wasn't allowed to talk, everytime I tried to talk and state my side of the story, I was interrupted. When I tried to explain what was said by the preceptor, it was explained away by the manager as that the preceptor was trying to relay what it was that I was supposed to do. I told her that that was not what happened. I was then told by the manager that I haven't been able to get along with neither one of the preceptors (This is the second one) and something is going to be done about this really soon in front of the other preceptor who was nodding in agreement. I left for my lunch break shortly after that and I told my preceptor that I was leaving and she was like yeah yeah yeah. At that point I left and took all of my belongings, and my lock to my locker because I was actually going to quit. I went home and I called the administrative office and I filed a grievance with them on the manager. I am soo sick of going through this. I have never had a job where there was soo much hostility. The preceptor admitted to the manager in front of me that she was rude and hostile because she felt that I am not catching on at all. How can I catch on or feel confident with you saying demeaning things and being hostile towards me. I don't even know if I am going to work tomorrow, I am soo sick of being treated like the dumb a@# medical assistant. They are very condescending, and now I find out that they are mocking me, and I think they are moving to try to get me out, and try to get me to quit. I really feel like they are antagonising me. I don't know what I am doing wrong. I still can't vital patients by myself because the preceptors claim that I can't take a decent blood pressure. I have been there for one month for crying out loud. I know how to do a blood pressure, I wouldn't have been able to graduate from school if I couldn't take a blood pressure. I am just flat out tired. I am really trying to hold on until after the holidays for my childrens sake, but I don't know if I can. I come home exhausted from work because I have basically walked around upset all day. I just don't know what to do. I have made sure not to stand as if I have an attitude, I have made sure that I talk to them with respect, I know I am doing everything right. Even the patients know how bad the hostility is between me and the preceptors because they always offer words of encouragement. I just don't now what to do. I have a house note to pay and I have two children to raise by myself, I need this job. But I don't want to drive myself into the nut house because of it. I am recovering from major depression from two years ago, and now I find myself falling back into that hole because of this job. I have stress anxiety and performance anxiety. My mouth gets dry, my underarms and the palms of my hands gets sweaty, I am just a ball of nerves when I go to work and it should'nt be that way. I worry when I get home because I know I have to get back up and go in in the morning. I just don't know what to do anymore. Sorry, I know this is a long rant.

Thank you fun2care and sfcardiacrn, your words were very helpful to me. Its nice to know that I am not the only one who has been through a trying period on a new job. I just have to grow a thick skin and just realize that this won't last forever and to just stick it out. If I don't keep the job and for whatever reason they decide to not keep me then it won't be because I gave up and quit. I have been giving them the power to control my emothins and if I don't give them that power anymore, then they can't have me in tears and have me feeling inferior. All I can do is do my best, thats all. I do admit that I need to come out of my shell and start doing the things that I know that I can do on my own. I know that they can't babysit me forever. I just feel so intimidated, and I don't want to do the wrong thing and get chewed out for it. Thanks for everybody's support.

Very well said rn/writer, you just helped me very much in my own problem that is similar to this post!!!!!

I was in a relationship like that for 5 years. I had been with him since I was 16 years old. He used to always say that I was worthless because I didn't have a job. He used to never be at home and then when he was at home he would be sleep. He never used to accuse me of having sex with anybody though, he used to say that he wished that I would find a boyfriend so I would leave him alone. I was always crying and couldn't figure out why he was treating me like garbage. It was like he took pleasure in playing with my emotions. He never did want to marry me. He would say we would get married next June or some crap like that and when next June would come and I would say something about it he would be like, "Oh I am not ready yet". He also was cheating on me with 14 and 16 year old girls. He is still with one of them now and he has a child by her. He has done soo many horrible things to me, he even gave me two venereal diseases at once and had me in the hospital sick. I thought I was having a gallbladder attack and turns out I had pelvic inflammatory disease. I have tried on numerous occasions to kill myself, and my self esteem was in the toilet. I didn't leave actually though, he left, and I am glad. I begged him not to go, but he left and we have been apart now for 3 years. Now he wants to come back home because I now have an excellent paying job and I am doing so well by myself. I have two children by this idiot and he doesn't even help me take care of them. I say leave, but make sure you have a plan in place before you do. I think it is easy for everyone to say leave, get out now, but where are you going to go when you do decide to leave. Everybody has such a warped view on spousal abuse. The shelters are closed and they are not accepting anymore people, and if your are lucky enough to get into a shelter, those places are so dismal and degrading, that you just feel like where you were at wasn't so bad after all. I have written several letters to the govenor of the state that I live in about the awfulness of the how some of these places that are getting government funded monies to help women and children in need are treating them soo poorly. This subject is real taboo. You should never stay in a relationship that is toxic for the childrens sake. I know I put my babies through hell watching me yell and curse out their father, or seeing me crying, or wondering where their mother is when I was in the icu after trying to kill myself. It just isn't worth it. My mother put me through the same thing with her husband, who was verbally, and physically abusive to her as well as me. He punched me in the mouth and knocked out two of my front teeth when I was thirteen. I still hold my mother responsible for that because if she had of paid attention to the signs that he was crazy, that would have never happened to me. I spent the rest of my teenage years in foster care because of that. So even if you don't do it for yourself, do it for your children. You never know how all of this will affect them in the long run. I am an adult now, but that stuff is still affecting me in my adulthood now.

And also fun2care, I like what you said about how people who love and care about you will say mean things so why should I expect more from someone that doesn't even know me. I never thought about it like that!!!! Thanks!!!!