PixieRN14

I am so happy to hear you are on the mend. You insight has been sorely missed here at AN. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and can't wait to hear that you are finally home.

So glad to see you back Esme!!!

Sorry to hear about the setback. Get better Esme! We miss you hear at AN.

Thank you for your prayers. It is absolutely heartbreaking what is going on in our beloved city.

Contact Abingdon Volunteer Fire Dept. It is 10.00. They just want you to get a group together to do it.

Congrats to everyone who got it! Word of advice, don't use your real names on forums like this. You never know who could be reading it 😉

Thank you for all your responses. I have talked to both my NM and Nurse educator. Both have assured me that I am doing well and they believe I will succeed. My biggest issue is my anxiety and the fact that I am very type A. I am very hard on myself and put a lot of expectations on myself.

You are in my prayers Esme!!!

Thanks again for all of your responses. I am beginning to think hospital nursing is just not for me and that is ok because we all have our niche.

Thank you all for your responses. Seems like I have a lot of soul searching to do.

I have been with the hospital almost four months. The patients are very complex with many needs. Trying to meet all the demands is a constant struggle and has only seem to get harder as time marches forward.

I graduated last May from an ADN program and passed my NCLEX in July. Finally I found my first job on a sub acute rehab in Oct. Working there wasn't bad but I had always wanted to work in a hospital. Then, in Dec I was asked to interview for a position on an Oncology unit and I was over the moon. I was offered the position and I informed my DON. She was very nice and said she understood why I was making this decision. Fast forward three months... I am completely miserable. I just don't think hospital nursing is for me. At first it was great and I received wonderful feedback. Yet as time has progressed I feel myself struggling more and more. No matter how hard I try I just can't get ahead. I have always been an organized person, so I can't put my finger on what I am doing wrong. I have been told I have a great bedside manner, that I excel in teaching and there are no concerns with the safety of my practice, but time management is a concern. I try to cluster my care as much as possible, prime tubing for bags outside of the patients room and have a brain sheet that is great. Still, my day consistently goes sideways and I can never get it back on track. I hate that I feel so rushed to complete so many things that take away from patient care, but then get super anxious when I start seeing the clock tick forward and still have so many things left to do. The anxiety I have the day before going back to work is horrible and I feel like I am becoming more and more depressed. I am at the point that I regret leaving my Sub acute rehab job. Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated.

Have you guys signed on to OwlNet to see if your major changed from pre nursing to Nursing? It may give you an early indication as to your status.

I went shopping for my son and I. Loved my shopping spree in Sephora and Nordstroms!

My first job was 5 8's and I never felt completely drained at the end of my shift. They only thing I hated was it was night shift, so basically I felt like I had no life. I now work 3 12's on days and I enjoy the four days off, but by the end of my shift I am exhausted. If I had my choice 5 8's during the day would be perfect.