tigger2sassy1

i am so sorry you are going through this. have just gone though the same myself. take it from me you dont want to continue with this environment. Sooner or later it will affect your work. I had a difficult decision to make. I got the heck out of that toxic envirment. Enough is enough. I feel better mentally and physically for doing so. build on that. make a new beginning. good luck.

Just my honest opinion only ok. if something like this is stressing you that badly. Please dont take the job. Or make the move. Not until YOU are sure that is what yyou really want. Hugs tiggertoosassy

I can feel your pain. Just lost someone I loved not long ago. I know what a journey it is to go on and it can be a very lonely one. Am learning every day how to go on with life. It is not an easy thing to do, but, it must be done. My young 29 year old daughter gave me the best advice I could ever receive. She said Mom, you have the best part of him. His body is now but an empty shell. You have him in your heart. Remember that always. She told me to stop feeling sorry for myself and it was time to start living again. So I am doing just that. Am looking forward to starting new beginnings. When one door closes, another opens. With time, maybe I can open my heart again. Until then, I will remember in my heart and look forward to what I have.

Wow!!! You definitely have potential. I like a new nurse that really isnt afraid to jump in there and get her feet wet. Also like a new nurse that has the want to in order to learn you need to ask questions. Great resources are here for the asking. Congrats to you:yeah:

The nurses at the facility I work at are also having fallen victim to this type of treatment by management. We are all suffering because of it. Most of us are single people who have no other income to rely on . There are employees who are unable to pay their utility bills, rent, or take care of our own necessities in life such as food and medical care. There has got to be something that can be done to put the brakes on this. We go in everyday that we are scheduled and work giving it all we have doing the required tasks that fall upon us. And yet that is still not enough. We have increased paperwork that is put on us on a daily basis. This is a sad time when the nurses cannot meet our own needs and still we try to meet the needs of our residents. And this happening in America, it is supposed to be the greatest country in the world? What will happen when we are unable to meet the needs of our residents because we cannot meet our own? Someone have the answer to this question? If so, I would be very interested in hearing them.

i would like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you for the words of wisdom and prayers and condolences sent thoughout this trying time for me. it will be an uphill battle for me as i enter this journey i know i will have up days and down days. but with your continued prayers to uplift me i will make it through. Again thank you so much and may God richly bless each and everyone of you tigger2sassy1

Dear SICU nurses-- i just wanted to write this letter of gratitude to you and your collegues. My husband spent from the 15th of february until this morning in the SICU unit. He passed away this morning. I just wanted to thank SICU nurses for all they do for our loved ones. My husband was given the best of care that i could ask for. Anytime i went to visit him he was clean and appeared satisfied with his care even though he was on a vent most of the time. His needs were attended to promptly and was treated with the utmost respect and dignity anyone could ask for. Whenever i spoke to his nurse to get an update on him, his nurse was always courteous and helpful They give love and support to the family as well as the patient. You folks certainly have a lot of responsibility riding on you, and you have earned my respect in the highest form. i am a nurse as well so i can say that i have been on both sides of the fence. I have learned so much in the past month and there is no way i could ever pretend to shoulder your responsibilities. Even through my heavy heart and tears of loss i would like to say thank you for a job well done. You have earned it. Sincerely tigger2sassy1

this thread permits me to say my peace at this time as recently as this week i have been on the other side of the fence so to speak. My husband went into the hospital on the 12th of february, ended up being intubated early in the morning of the fifteenth he went into respiratory failure and spent the most horrible last three weeks of his life. He was intubated and extubated a total of three times, was on a vent off the vent, then back on the vent finally an order was written do not intubate he was placed on a bipap for the last five days he was off the vent had an ng tube, foley catheter, rectal tube, and central and arterial lines everywhere i saw him for the last time alive on sunday for the one hour of visitation between 5 to 6 pm i witnessed him being intubated for the first time ( In 25 years as a nurse i had never experienced that) i still have nightmares about it thursday he was made a dnr and they pulled the bipap and ng tube and started the morphine eventually ativan was also given he passed away peacefully this morning about 830 am. I was the idiot who wanted to keep him alive because i was so selfish to let him have his dignity. I should be ashamed of myself for being that way. Until i saw for myself how much he really was suffering god placed a heavy burden on my heart it was released this morning when the love of my life passed on so peacefully. do i feel pulling the ng tube and the vent off killed him no it allowed him to die with dignity and gave him peace forever. tigger

My dear friends. It is with great saddness and heavy heart that i am letting you all know that my love of my life passed away just before 0830 this morning i know that he went peacefully i was not able to get to the hospital in time for him to take his last breath-- i was walking through the parking lot when the nurse from the sicu called me. i saw him within moments after he had passed away. He did look much at peace. i stayed long enough to say a little prayer for him and then kissed him goodbye. Maybe five or ten minutes i dont know everything has been such a blur. I was alone when i drove to the hospital and drove back alone. I asked god to keep me safe during my trip to and from the hospital. I just let jesus take the wheel. I know not what lies in store for me next but will trust that jesus will be with me. Thank you so much my friends for praying for me. Please continue prayer for me as i start my new journey in life alone. May god bless each and every one of you Tigger2sassy1

my dear friends it is with much saddness that i write this as of this morning my husband was made a DNR by the doctors they have pulled his bipap and started him on morphine his condition as deteriorated such that the doctors felt it was necessary to do this i feel now he his in the active process of dying please i ask that you pray that he has peace and god to give me the strength to go on thank you

now more than ever i received word tonight that my husbands condition continues to deteriorate he is starting not to have any output tomorrow i will be talking with his doctor to see exactly what his prognosis i feel that he will tell me that it is time to change his code status god help me be strong enough to make this decision should it have to be done

update today-- well it has been three days now since my husband was taken off the vent so far vital signs have been stable he has been verbally responding and following commands staff informs me that his respirations have been labored at times he was at 20-25 early this morning still is in afib though pulse at 96 still being fed through ng tube i am grateful that he is getting the care he needs as for me i am tired but still hanging in there i am unable to visit on a daily basis due to finances i have to realize i have to let them take care of him and i must try to take care of myself or there will be no one to take care of me i hope that i am not being selfish by doing this but i have to keep myself as healthy as i can like i said in another post i am giving it over into gods hands as i cannot do all this alone i am willing to make sacrifices to do what is best for me and my husband i ask that you pray for me to have strength to do what i must do am working some 12 and 8 hour shifts am trying to take care of myself thank you for your prayers and messages this really helps a lot and means a lot may god bless each and every one of you tigger

hello my friends just want to update you on my husband they pulled the endo tube today around noon sats have been in the mid 90s this afternoon he is now breathing on his own with o2 via nasal cannula instead of a mask i went to see him this evening he had a big grin on his face when i walked into sicu to gown and glove up today was the first day i have been able to hold a conversation with hhim since sunday i asked him if he knew who i was he said your my honey i was so very happy to hear that i got a kiss tonight tomorrow is our 14th anniversary you cant have a better present than that im telling you he also told me he was hungry and wanted to know if i had any food he didnt care what i had just needed to be food has pulled out ng tube at least twice this afternoon they told me tonight if he progresses as well as now they would be trying to start with ice chips to see if he could tolerate that then move on to clear liquids that is the best news yet he wants to go home so bad keep the prayers going they are working!!!!!! may god bless all of you and yours tigger

i guess i spoke too soon this afternoon was so happy about the progress my husband was making i got a call about an hour and a half later from the hospital they were going to have to put him back on the vent they said he was not waking up very well blood sugar 271 and blood pressure going low also was satting around 90% and i was just getting ready to go to work tonight 6p-6a had to call work so they could get someone to cover for me the hospital had asked me to call back for an update at 5 pm which i did at that time they were waiting for the dr to get there i told them i was on my way. by the time i got to the hospital they had already intubated him and had him on the vent i guess it was too soon for him to be off for very long i saw him for two visits then i kissed him bye and came home to get some haha ha rest vital signs were stable when i left i had gotten him to start opening his eyes and follow verbal commands so we starting all over again i guess i hope and pray that everyone forgives me for taking so much time on this it is the only way i have to get things off my chest i dont know what i would do if i didnt have this board and my precious friends of an please continue your prayers for us i am letting go and letting god love to you all tigger

just an update on my husband he is still holding his own at least i went up to see him this morning color is pretty good when i can find him beneath all those tubes and some bruising they did a ct scan this morning they say he is not talking as much as the dr thinks he should be they want to rule out the possibility of a stroke iwent in to see he i told him to squeeze my hand if he knew who i was he grabbed my hand and squeezed it as though he wasnt going to let it go good firm grip:lol2: i told him that i had a surprise for him i told him that he has a grandaughter (he didnt know about her) she is 18 months old he looked at me and the best description i can give is ya know the look on a babby's face when they pass gas the grin:D that was his reaction i think it was a positive response:up: he did answer some yes/no questions for me verbally can anyone tell me why he might not be as verbal as what the dr thinks he should be any info would be appreciated my hat is off to staff of intensive care units ya gotta love them they are great:bowingpur:yeah:again thanks for all the prayers going up for us please continue will update soon tigger:redbeathe:redbeathe