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hey i just took my nclex-rn exam for cali and and i know that i failed, i tried the pearson vue trick with bad results, even though i haven't received my letter yet i know in my heart because i choked, after i reached the 75th question and continued up to 200, i just couldn't think straight it's killing me because my family expects a lot from me and i couldn't even retake because i'm a foreign student and i don't have a stupid ssn and i can't get one unless i have a working visa which i wouldn't get because i failed my exam.. i've been crying the whole time, it just hurts so bad- this exam is the only exam i've ever failed and it's the most important one yet, i'm so disappointed in my self, i really thought i could do it and i know i prepared for it but i guess god has other plans for me.. i'm stuck and i don't know what to do next-if i can't reapply to california, do i have to start all over again if i have to change states? and what are the states that does not require ssn? all suggestions would really be helpful, thanks

hey i just took my nclex-rn exam for cali and and i know that i failed, i tried the pearson vue trick with bad results, even though i haven't received my letter yet i know in my heart because i choked, after i reached the 75th question and continued up to 200, i just couldn't think straight it's killing me because my family expects a lot from me and i couldn't even retake because i'm a foreign student and i don't have a stupid ssn and i can't get one unless i have a working visa which i wouldn't get because i failed my exam.. i've been crying the whole time, it just hurts so bad- this exam is the only exam i've ever failed and it's the most important yet, i'm so disappointed in my self, i really thought i could do it and i know i prepared for it but i guess god has other plans for me.. i'm stuck and i don't know what to do next-if i can't reapply to california, do i have to start all over again if i have to change states? and what are the states that does not require ssn? all suggestions would really be helpful, thanks