my story is not a happy one, but maybe one that should be brought up at the appropriate time. when I was a nursing student, my first pedies patient was an adorable 18 mo old male. he was brother to a twin. altho my pt. was 18 mo's old, he looked maybe only a yr. old. his twin was fully developed. this baby would cry ...kind of alot..until held by caring arms. I happened to be living at my parents house at the time...with my own two boys, due to going thru a divorce..(yeah, I did go back to MY home and establish OUR life there. ;-> ) so, I happened to be watching the news w/ my parents...and this story comes up about a baby dying. It was my patient. he was discharged..on the wk-end... his "father" and I use that term loosely, got ****** at him for crying... I most likely should not go in to further detail due to legal issues, but I think you probly get the idea of what happened. like I said before, his twin was fully developed..this one was neglected (ie, left in the crib.......) and even more abused. this just blows my mind. anyway.....as I am watching this story unfold on the news...I slip away into the kitchen n just start silently bawling my eyes out. needless to say, that night, in bed, was horrible. which when I think of it..is completely nothing compared to what this baby went thru. the very next morning my nursing instructor called me @ home. she said "your baby died"...we went on talking....I told her I wasnt sure I could stay in nursing...she gave me time...she asked if I needed time off...I told her no..but I needed to think. It was really....stay or go. It still haunts me, as it should. I went back to the hospital...we were all so sad...and yeah..they kept on saying what my instructor said.. (there is never the right thing to say, probly). I stayed in nursing....and when I went to hometown football games,...as I had to cross the biggest hopsital on the way to the stadium, some of my patients siblings would rush out and grab me, hug me,--as their sib was in...having an operation for intussusception or whatever. THIS IS THE STUFF THAT GRABS YOUR HEART & MAKES YOU STAY. and now I'm going for my bsn, go figure. ;->