I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. I believe that nursing can be a very rewarding career, but you have to find what works for you. Did you feel symptoms of depression before you started your career as a nurse? I just wondered if maybe it is the depression that is making your job/life hard to deal with or if it is the job that is making life harder to deal with. Either way it is unfortunate that you are going through this. My best advice would be to think deeply about your passions. What do you feel passionate about? Children, women's health, gereatrics... so on and so forth. The great thing about nursing is that your opportunities are wide. There are so many different areas of healthcare that you can work in. Maybe switching it up could be helpful. I have also dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts and I admire your honesty! Here is a link to a video that helped me in that time. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3agIy5L4JMY Hopefully that helps a little. Hang in there.