RNburninout

So I have only been a nurse for 3.5 years. I have gotten experience in Hospice, which I loved. I left Hospice after working 60 hour weeks for 40 hours pay and my marriage started to suffer. Now I am back at Med-surg and I am miserable! I have been at this job for 6 months (with the company for a year). I just dropped down to a PRN position because I was so depressed about going to work I was about to have a nervous breakdown. My hubby said we could afford for me to work 2 shifts per week instead of three. Well, today I got my first paycheck and he's all the sudden said he miscalculated and doesn't think we can afford to have me working only 2 shifts. Dropping that 3rd shift has made a difference in my emotional status. I still don't like my job, but I am managing. I don't cry for a day before reporting to work; I only mope for a day. My suicidal thoughts have lessened...(I would never act on them, but I will admit to having these thoughts). I do take an anti-depressant but it's not working as well as it has in the past. My doctor is aware about my problems but is unwilling to adjust my meds as I just had a weight loss surgery less than a year ago. I am unwilling to increase my shifts again...plus I don't know if my supervisor will have the hours for me as they have already filled my position. There are hardly any openings out there right now....none in Hospice which I loved. I don't know what I am going to do and I just feel so hopeless. I am so ready to give nursing up all together but we can't afford for me to lose this type of income. Please advise.....:aln: