Hi everyone! Im so glad that I found y'all. Im 46 yrs old. Have been a RN for 25 yrs with 24 yrs of it mainly in Labor and Delivery. I initially hurt my back when I was 22 yrs old while lifting a nursing home patient back into bed at the hospital. The first hospital I worked at, was a small country hospital that only did 50 deliveries a month so we often got "floated" to another department to help out. I was diagnosed with bulging discs at that time at L2/L3, L3,L4 and L4 L5. I also injured C2, C3 C3,C4, C5. Anyway, right now Im on LTD with failed back surgery syndrome. I had back surgery dec '05, which only made my pain in my right leg and hip worse than it was. I also have bulging discs and degenerative discs at L3/L4, L4/L5.L5/L6. Compounded by the flare up of my Cervical discs. I have pain from my neck down to my toes!! My pain is so severe at times, even on pain medicine, that I feel like Im going to die. Ive been with a pain management physician since Feb "07. Ive had 3 unsuccessful epidural injections, a unsuccessful nerve block and finally had a discogram that showed the amount of degeneration in my lumbar discs. He is now wanting to do a nerve conduction study related to the pain from the cervical discs which is causing me to have pain down both arms, numbness and me dropping things all the time:o Some days are worse than others, but the majority of the time, I stay in the house watching TV and surfing the net when I can. Since I cant sit long or use my hands for long. Im also divorced and paying cobra to keep my health insurance. What im going to do when the LTD runs out, I have no clue except to apply for SSI which I hear takes a long time. It just saddens me that after all the years I have put in as a nurse, I have nothing to show for it now. At this point in time I dont know what is going to happen to me. I just thing there should be something available to seasoned nurses that have experienced injuries such as ours. A home based type of work that we can utilize our knowlege in some way. I live an hour from Atlanta, so there are'nt any big insurance companies or research type jobs in this area. Anyway, I am so glad I found this so that I can at least vent and get ideas or just have friendships with people that truely do understand what we are going through. Donna:balloons: