Caroline0322

Hi there, Was doing some digging on OSU’s FNP Program and wanted to see if anyone got in for fall 2019 when I saw this post. Unfortunately, I got waitlisted and am uncertain why. Have a 3.79 GPA. Worked in adult med surg for a year now am in the PICU (less than 2 years total experience). Thought I had good rec letters and a good essay. Would you be able to share some of your background I.e. experience, gpa, etc. so that I could maybe see where I went wrong. If you don’t want to share, no worries! Hope it’s not rude to ask. Just looking for insight. Thanks ?

So, just found out that I didn’t get into osu’s FNP program; I got in the waitlist. I’m pretty bummed over this and dwelling on the “why didn’t I get in aspect”. I know this is futile, but I just can’t help but feel unworthy. The minimum requirement was a 3.0 GPA, and I had a 3.79. I had a very strong essay and some good rec letters. The online interview was just okay..very little time to think about answers. Work experience includes one year of general adult med surg and am currently working in the PICU at a top children’s hospital in Cleveland. Just not really sure why I didn’t get in..lack of nursing experience (less than 2 years), maybe poor interview, perhaps bias towards former OSU students? Could the PICU experience be hurting me? Could they think that the picu doesn’t fit in with the whole family nurse practitioner? Any words of advice/thoughts on why I didn’t get in are welcome. Thanks!!

I recently just got out of orientation from the PICU. I was at work last night, and the nurse next to me had to intubate her kid. I helped draw up meds and then I started two record vitals on the intubation flow sheet. An experienced nurse looked over to make sure I was doing it right-which she said I was. Then the charge nurse walked in and that other experienced nurse said, "can you take over recording?" & she took the paper out of my hands. I tried to shake it off, but I am left feeling unsettled...like I did something wrong. She said I was doing it right, so I am confused why she had someone take over. I am not sure if the nurses are just territorial and they don't trust me yet. I don't know if this is "the nature of the ICU." -Note: I don't feel comfortable asking her if I did something wrong

So I am just wondering if anyone out there started off in general adult med surg and went into pediatrics-more specifically, PICU nursing... I graduated nursing school with my BSN in May of 2017, and my first job was a very difficult med surg floor. High patient to nurse ratios & high acuities. We had a lot of codes and a lot of ICU transfers (those dialysis patients really can get sick and sick fast). I became comfortable on my floor despite the high stress and demanding nature of it. I felt confident as a nurse and even felt like a goody nurse. I got asked to precept new grads after only being a nurse for a year, so I felt like I had to be doing something right. However, my passion was always peds. I wanted to go into picu nursing since the beginning of school, but was told to try general med surg for a year. So I did and as soon as my year was up, applied to my hospital's picu. I got the job and was thrilled. I started about 2 weeks ago and am in orientation for 12 weeks. I have worked about 7 shifts now...and my confidence is SHATTERED!! I feel like I know nothing. Everything is different. The way you give meds, the med calcs, the way you draw blood, the way you give blood, the tubing you use for meds is different than adults. It's literally a whole new world. I knew it would be different-like being a new nurse all over again. That being said, I feel so STUPID. I feel like I'm a horrible nurse and my preceptor thinks I'm dumb. I had had my first intubated pt yesterday on epi and all the regulars of versed, precedex, fentanyl paired with a trached pt on a home vent. I was so overwhelmed. I felt so stupid with everything and trying to learn all about the vents, the drips, appropriate MAPS, end tital CO2s, weaning your pt off epi, etc. To make matters slightly worse, I think my preceptor thinks I am so dumb. She asked "didn't you do any of this in adult nursing?" No, we didn't. I wasn't in an ICU so we didn't get any of this stuff. Plus, everything in kids is different than adults-even general. She gets annoyed when she has to repeat herself. If she tells me something once that was 5 days ago, and I don't remember, her response is: "I told you this already, remember?" All is this has me left feeling discouraged and dumb. I don't know if I have what it takes to be a picu nurse. I don't know if I'm smart enough. I used to think I was a decently intelligent person. Always did well in school, graduated top of my class...but now I'm second guessing everything. And I'm literally scared of my preceptor because she acts like I'm an invalid. Anyone else gone through this??