pillowee

Here's my background: I'm 26, my first degree was psych, nursing would be my second BSN. I'm in my second semester, and I'm not sure it's for me. I've never know what I wanted to do in life, which is why I didn't go to college right away. Tried some classes, thought I'd do pre-med cause science was interesting. I eventually transitioned into nursing, but didn't get in. I didn't know what to do, so my mom suggested I take psychology and be a counselor like her. I didn't have anything else going for me, so I figured why not. I graduated, started my MA in counseling, and applied at a school as a teacher. I really hated it, so I quit after a month. I didn't know what to do again, and my family was angry and disappointed in me. I heard from someone that what hindered me from getting in the nursing program was changed, so I applied and got in last sem. My family was happy with me again, but I think I made a mistake. I'm tired of school, and just want to work already. I want to move away from my family and be happy. I haven't been happy in a long time. I'm depressed, anxious, and a wreck, and that was before nursing school. I'm tired of studying, tired of getting in trouble from my preceptors. They tell me I always looked bored. I like the work, it's interesting, but I don't have any passion for it. My only passion in life is reading. I want to quit nursing school, move away, and find a job. I want to be happy already, I want to live my life. It's not guaranteed that I'm going to be happy, but I don't know. Yet, I'm also scared that I might regret it if I quit. But everyday I'm crying because I'm not happy. When I try to broach it to my mom, she tells me to get over it. She doesn't like us being depressed. (I know 26 is an adult, but for my family and culture, age doesn't matter, parents are still parents). I don't know anymore.

I know this is an old thread (2011), but I just need to say....... I really wish this was the case with my school. They always tell us to read the book because they don't have enough time to cover everything. Studying based on their powerpoints and guide doesn't help because they like to ask questions about things they never mentioned because we were supposed to read the books. I think my professors are demented. If it's not important, why bother teaching it? I'm so done with studying.