I've posted a few times on here, but I really need some feedback and advice. Well here it goes...
I graduated high school in 2006 and I ONLY wanted to be a nurse. I researched all about it and I loved the millions of opportunities nursing gave RN's, loved the job security, good pay in my area, and I have a heart to help people. It felt like the best thing I could do. So I went to a community college to get pre-reqs out of the way. I never applied to the nursing program at a community college because I was 18 years old and wanted to get my associates and pre-reqs and move on to get my BSN. So I spent two years at community college and transferred to a University. A private University, yes I chose it. It was 30k a year but I had scholarships and at the time my Dad wasn't working so we got a lot of Financial Aid that I'd only be paying 10k a year. I thought that was good since its comparable to the state schools around here. So, I went. Let me tell you, I hated it. All of a sudden I had anxiety through the roof every day all day. I got nervous by just walking to class. I had test anxiety so bad I'd just black out on a test. It wasn't just text anxiety, it was everyday anxiety. I started looking on here, seeing all the unhappy, dreadful nurses complaining and warning students to leave nursing. So, my bright idea was to get a job at a hospital. I got a job as a patient sitter (horrible job, from experience) I was attacked by a psychotic man going through detox on the job. All the nurses there told me to run from the profession, that they missed so many activities with the family, and how thankless and horrible the job was. They told me to run from the profession, that it wasn't getting better anytime soon and that if I ever wanted a family I should look for a new career now and do it while I'm young because nursing isn't as flexible as they tell you it is. I was dumbfounded. Sure, these RN's know what their talking about and I looked up to them so much because here I was a patient sitter and their RN's. Some of which only were in the profession for 4 years telling me they really wish they chose something else. I never got a break, even as a patient sitter and ALL I did was sit. I wasn't allowed to study, read, or watch TV even on night shifts and even when my patient was sleeping. Some of the RN's completely ignored me when I was there, acting as if I wasn;t even in the room. I mean sure, I was in my first semester of a BSN program but heck I didn't even know how to take vitals and they were telling me to bathe a patient! I was told sitters do not touch the patient. Well, anyway, the job went horribly and I correlated the job to this site and figured that most (NOT ALL) RN's are miserable and I'd be miserable too. I ended up with such bad anxiety that I failed Pathophysiology but all the other Nursing classes were okay. My GPA was a 2.6 even with a failed grade in a class but anything lower than a 3.0 meant my scholarship was taken away. That meant I had to pay almost full price for the school (well like 10k more) and I couldn't put my parents through that. With interest and all..I just couldn't. So I dropped out and transferred back to the community college and started taking classes just to stay in school. The nursing program there is waitlisted so I didn't want to wait 2 years, I transferred AGAIN and decided I'd get a Bachelors in psycology because that interests me and then I'd go back for an accelerated BSN. Well, I'll graduate next May (if I take full time courses in the summer) and a lot of people are saying that I won't get financial aid for the second bachelors because you use it all in the undergrad or something like that. Not only that, but everyday I check on this site. I'm so jealous of the students who are studying a degree that I always wanted. I wan't to desperately get into a program. The school I transferred to, a state college, is waitlisted there nursing program and said they have so few nrusing instructors it will be a long wait. I just don't know what to do. I cry everyday because I left my first school. I had and still have such anxiety where I cant stop crying somedays, I just want to be a nurse. I feel this degree is a waste of $ when I know I'm jsut going back for nursing. All of the accelerated nursing programs around here are at private colleges and the tuitions are $$60k. YES 60,000. I cant go to the community college because the community college is a great college, one of the best in the nation acutally and getting in is almost impossible. GPA=4.0 NET test has to be perfect and their still going on a 2year waitlist so people from years ago have priority. I'm 22 years old now and I knwo some people are like wow so young but I've been in college back and forth since 2006. I'm just so depressed and ashamed at the road I'm taking and I want this so bad that I don't even know what to do anymore:crying2::crying2::crying2:
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I've posted a few times on here, but I really need some feedback and advice. Well here it goes...
I graduated high school in 2006 and I ONLY wanted to be a nurse. I researched all about it and I loved the millions of opportunities nursing gave RN's, loved the job security, good pay in my area, and I have a heart to help people. It felt like the best thing I could do. So I went to a community college to get pre-reqs out of the way. I never applied to the nursing program at a community college because I was 18 years old and wanted to get my associates and pre-reqs and move on to get my BSN. So I spent two years at community college and transferred to a University. A private University, yes I chose it. It was 30k a year but I had scholarships and at the time my Dad wasn't working so we got a lot of Financial Aid that I'd only be paying 10k a year. I thought that was good since its comparable to the state schools around here. So, I went. Let me tell you, I hated it. All of a sudden I had anxiety through the roof every day all day. I got nervous by just walking to class. I had test anxiety so bad I'd just black out on a test. It wasn't just text anxiety, it was everyday anxiety. I started looking on here, seeing all the unhappy, dreadful nurses complaining and warning students to leave nursing. So, my bright idea was to get a job at a hospital. I got a job as a patient sitter (horrible job, from experience) I was attacked by a psychotic man going through detox on the job. All the nurses there told me to run from the profession, that they missed so many activities with the family, and how thankless and horrible the job was. They told me to run from the profession, that it wasn't getting better anytime soon and that if I ever wanted a family I should look for a new career now and do it while I'm young because nursing isn't as flexible as they tell you it is. I was dumbfounded. Sure, these RN's know what their talking about and I looked up to them so much because here I was a patient sitter and their RN's. Some of which only were in the profession for 4 years telling me they really wish they chose something else. I never got a break, even as a patient sitter and ALL I did was sit. I wasn't allowed to study, read, or watch TV even on night shifts and even when my patient was sleeping. Some of the RN's completely ignored me when I was there, acting as if I wasn;t even in the room. I mean sure, I was in my first semester of a BSN program but heck I didn't even know how to take vitals and they were telling me to bathe a patient! I was told sitters do not touch the patient. Well, anyway, the job went horribly and I correlated the job to this site and figured that most (NOT ALL) RN's are miserable and I'd be miserable too. I ended up with such bad anxiety that I failed Pathophysiology but all the other Nursing classes were okay. My GPA was a 2.6 even with a failed grade in a class but anything lower than a 3.0 meant my scholarship was taken away. That meant I had to pay almost full price for the school (well like 10k more) and I couldn't put my parents through that. With interest and all..I just couldn't. So I dropped out and transferred back to the community college and started taking classes just to stay in school. The nursing program there is waitlisted so I didn't want to wait 2 years, I transferred AGAIN and decided I'd get a Bachelors in psycology because that interests me and then I'd go back for an accelerated BSN. Well, I'll graduate next May (if I take full time courses in the summer) and a lot of people are saying that I won't get financial aid for the second bachelors because you use it all in the undergrad or something like that. Not only that, but everyday I check on this site. I'm so jealous of the students who are studying a degree that I always wanted. I wan't to desperately get into a program. The school I transferred to, a state college, is waitlisted there nursing program and said they have so few nrusing instructors it will be a long wait. I just don't know what to do. I cry everyday because I left my first school. I had and still have such anxiety where I cant stop crying somedays, I just want to be a nurse. I feel this degree is a waste of $ when I know I'm jsut going back for nursing. All of the accelerated nursing programs around here are at private colleges and the tuitions are $$60k. YES 60,000. I cant go to the community college because the community college is a great college, one of the best in the nation acutally and getting in is almost impossible. GPA=4.0 NET test has to be perfect and their still going on a 2year waitlist so people from years ago have priority. I'm 22 years old now and I knwo some people are like wow so young but I've been in college back and forth since 2006. I'm just so depressed and ashamed at the road I'm taking and I want this so bad that I don't even know what to do anymore:crying2:
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