Monthly self reports

I do quite agree. Not sure what yours looks like, but ours is a myriad of little check boxes and 1-5 rating scales. Our program is so individualized //sarcasm alert// that we can all be boiled down into the same series of yes/no questions and rating scales. Am I eating nutritious meals? Sure. If by that you mean ramen and mystery meat hot dogs, because that's all I can afford after paying for all the P tests. How would I rate my level of stress? I can't answer. There's no option higher than 5. I need a minimum number of 50 and that's on a good day.

My feeling is that these program's function is to monitor the ability to safely practice. If it ain't got nothing to do with nursing, it's not thier business. If there are life issues that may impact one's practice, that is where the NSG, one's therapist, psych doc, etc. come in. Those people are able to contact the program if need be. They have thier reports to turn in too. Though I truly wonder if they get read either. No little check off sheet every couple of months is worth anything. It's just one more thing to turn in that gets shoved into some electronic file, never to seen again.

Yes! That is so funny. The "I take care to make sure I eat nourishing meals" question is hilarious. I wish I had elaborated on that question and written: I ate a free piece of pizza yesterday and drank the rest of a 2 day old Diet Coke that was in my lunch box at work when I had 3 minutes to eat and pee. Totally looking out for myself.

I am so darn bitter at the program. I just want this to be over. I want to use hand sanitizer. I want to take a Benadryl when I have allergies...And I would like to see my doctor about medication for anxiety/depression (Lexapro, something like that) I have paused my life and am in no way taking care of myself because I have no freaking privacy. I refuse to disclose monitoring to my doctor or any meds I may need to the monitors. That would surely get me another few months in the program.

Thanks for listening to me vent. I apologize in advance if I have upset anyone with my negativity today.

I completely get it. I'm a bit older now, so my jets have cooled a little and nothing too exciting either way happens. But, you should have seen my self report after I had a false positive for alcohol. Dear God, what a nightmare that was.

I told them the N, in IPN stood for No, Nil, Nada, No bueno, Nope, Nothing and so on.

If ever I gave a totally unselfconscious report of everything, it was in that report. Emotional status? Mental status? Financial status? Really? Well, let's see now... My husband hates IPN with a passion because despite over 5 years clean and sober, almost 3 years of it in IPN, I still can't get a job. He's ready to kill me for asking for another $1,500 to prove what I already know ( all tests negative ), all tests negative means nothing to IPN anyway. I'm a nervous wreck! That's what!

It didn't get counted as a relapse, thank God. But they took my ability to work in chemical dependency away from me and at that time, it was the only field willing to give me a shot. I had a job offer.

So, I just laid it all out and asked if any of them would react differently in the same situation? Like people who aren't under a monitoring contract aren't susceptible to the same emotions brought about by stressors? Everything we hold dear is on the line... That still stands out as one of the worst things that's ever happened to me. I learned that no matter how old you are, if you stick around long enough, minding your own business, **** will still rain down.