I work on a med-surg floor, yes it's busy, challenging and mentally and physically demanding. I have been nursing for 3 years and working in the hospital for a little over a year. I started taking courses but find the hands on training most beneficial to my practice. I am continually learning something new everyday, and I truly love it. Do I know everything? Absolutely not!!
When I first started working on the floor, I began making friends everyday, everyone seemed so open minded and welcoming. When I needed help I wasn't intimidated in asking anyone. Recently the rumor is "the floor has changed... it's the worst it's been in 5 years". I can't honestly say the support isn't there when I need it, but can I rely on everyone to support me in a critical event? No... Do I feel judged after a critical event and the outcome isn't good for the patient? YES! I recently felt scrutinized after a patient was sent out to another facilities ICU, did I do the best job possible? Did I catch the problem quick enough? Walking on the floor to have a co-nurse immediately tell me .."oh that patient died BTW". That hurt. I worked the rest of my shift, kept those feelings to myself to come home and cry. Now I sit here wondering can I do this all over again.....
I previously had people adding me to social media accounts, and now I don't want them in my outside life. I don't feel like they support me, I don't trust them with my secrets or stories, because I know if "something juicy" came up it would spread like wild fire through the floor even hospital. I've deleted people, panicked and got rid of the social media accounts fearing the repercussions of it.
I just want the professional, respectful and positive relationship with my co-workers. I want to know that if I am running around I can turn around and "Ashley" will be running to the supply room grabbing the IV kit to start the new IV needed on the patient quickly declining. I want to know that in times of need the support is there, not sitting in the hallway chit-chatting about a new home purchased... and I don't want it to come down to RN-RPN.... Just last night I walked in the break room to hear "Oh I'm just an RPN"....
Work is becoming more and more difficult. The rapport on the floor is poor, cliques are forming and I am backing away as quickly as I can. I enjoy the daily challenges, but I can't defeat them on my own, and I don't expect anyone else to either.
...spacegal123
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I work on a med-surg floor, yes it's busy, challenging and mentally and physically demanding. I have been nursing for 3 years and working in the hospital for a little over a year. I started taking courses but find the hands on training most beneficial to my practice. I am continually learning something new everyday, and I truly love it. Do I know everything? Absolutely not!!
When I first started working on the floor, I began making friends everyday, everyone seemed so open minded and welcoming. When I needed help I wasn't intimidated in asking anyone. Recently the rumor is "the floor has changed... it's the worst it's been in 5 years". I can't honestly say the support isn't there when I need it, but can I rely on everyone to support me in a critical event? No... Do I feel judged after a critical event and the outcome isn't good for the patient? YES! I recently felt scrutinized after a patient was sent out to another facilities ICU, did I do the best job possible? Did I catch the problem quick enough? Walking on the floor to have a co-nurse immediately tell me .."oh that patient died BTW". That hurt. I worked the rest of my shift, kept those feelings to myself to come home and cry. Now I sit here wondering can I do this all over again.....
I previously had people adding me to social media accounts, and now I don't want them in my outside life. I don't feel like they support me, I don't trust them with my secrets or stories, because I know if "something juicy" came up it would spread like wild fire through the floor even hospital. I've deleted people, panicked and got rid of the social media accounts fearing the repercussions of it.
I just want the professional, respectful and positive relationship with my co-workers. I want to know that if I am running around I can turn around and "Ashley" will be running to the supply room grabbing the IV kit to start the new IV needed on the patient quickly declining. I want to know that in times of need the support is there, not sitting in the hallway chit-chatting about a new home purchased... and I don't want it to come down to RN-RPN.... Just last night I walked in the break room to hear "Oh I'm just an RPN"....
Work is becoming more and more difficult. The rapport on the floor is poor, cliques are forming and I am backing away as quickly as I can. I enjoy the daily challenges, but I can't defeat them on my own, and I don't expect anyone else to either.
...spacegal123