i just don't know what to do

[scaredandalone]

This has not been a great week. After studying for the NCLEX exam all this week and trying to answer many many questions, I found myself in front of the computer screen, not knowing if I was answering the right answers and not knowing if I used the strategies on the test I had learned through the Kaplan review. I just don't know what to think. My test stopped at 75 and all I wanted was the computer to give me more questions to redeem myself so I could start getting the "priority" questions everyone was talking about towards the end of the test. I don't know what to think. It's making me think crazy and messing up my mind. I even had a fight with my friend today about something sooooo stupid and I don't even know where my mind was. It was a pointless fight and I have no idea what happened. It's all my fault and this on my head while waiting for results is killing me. I may have failed the NCELX exam but also lost one of my best friends. I don't know what to do anymore. All I want is to be a nurse and make people feel better. All this stress is making me take it out on someone else and I can't help but think its all my fault. I didn't pass the test. I failed it miserably. 75...thats it?? IMPOSSIBLE. I don't know what to do.

[NKL39]

First of all, there is no point in getting down on yourself about failing until you know for sure. Secondly, and seemingly more important to you, fighting with your friend. This is likely to be one of the most stressful times in your life. Having a short temper, inability to concentrate, or think rationally goes with the teritory. Once you have your result, or can become more relaxed. Call your friend and explain how the stress has effected you. I think that feeling is something almost everyone can relate to and they should be empathetic.

Good luck on your test and working things our with your friend.

[CARE4PEDS]

Scaredandalone,

Hopefully it offers you some comfort to know that you aren't alone. I am normally a pretty confident person, but in the last 36 hours I barely recognize the person I am as I wait for the results. I shift from being okay, to being a total pile of crap. My husband has heard "SORRY" so many times since the test that he wants to cry. I hope that your anxiety is relieved in the near future, as well as mine. Although I don't feel qualified to offer you any words of wisdom or false validation, I can tell you that you aren't alone and that we will get through this.... although it certainly does not feel that way.

Take care....