Double the trouble

Hey all, long story but super important and messy. Any advice is greatly appreciated!

 I am an RN BSN and I was recently caught on camera removing paperwork from a narc count sheet. The subsequent shifts realized a whole 30 card of oxycodone and 5 Vicodin were missing. I took the pills. I only took 16 of them. I had been working full time at this nursing home during covid on night shift.  And part time at a local hospital during day shift. On one night I saw three of my favorite patients pass away horrible, breathlessness gagging deaths from covid.  I have a high risk son. I was terrified. I decided to remove the meds in case I got sick, that way I could confine myself to my room and die with some peace and dignity. I did not intend on killing myself unless I got really sick. I also did not intend on abusing the narcs. However my lawyer is pushing the fact that substance abuse is treated lighter than a suicide attempt. So she told me to go to an inpatient rehab for 30 days and make sure I test positive for opiates. I took one 5 mg in the way to the center and competed the program. 
 

I am terrified, more so because this is not my first rodeo with the board. I had a misdemeanor possession and a DUI back in 2008. I competed the monitoring and had restrictions on my nursing license. I was an LPN, when I got my RN My license was uncumbered.

I just recently have been dealing with some domestic issues and have filed a restraining order against my s.o. Last year in 2019 I was charged with a DUI but it was dropped to wreckless op. I never reported it. One thing I learned is to never tell them anything. (I self reported back in 2008) I was naive and thought they were there to help nurses. Anyways, does anyone know anything about having another consent agreement on a separate license? 
The facility never drug tested me, they did however notify the board and the authorities. 

I am diagnosed with anxiety and depression, I take Ativan infrequently. During covid I lost my damn mind. Dealing with the unknown and my issues at home with my ex fiancé led me down a path I wish I would have never gone down.  
My lawyer is adamant on saying I am an addict and I have already gone to rehab per her request. I personally feel it was PTSD, but she said I don’t need any more “psych” stuff on my record. 
In conclusion does anyone know of anyone that has had 2 separate consent agreements for two different incidents on different licenses? I’m lost. Defeated. I also hired a criminal lawyer for my pending charges and he told me to hold on to the narcs. Yes I still have all 16 oxycodone and the 5 Vicodin.  Ready and willing to return them. 
 

This nursing home is shady, I was a DON there briefly and requested a demotion. We had no supplies and we were grossly understaffed. The only evidence they have is my lawyers admission and video surveillance of paperwork being removed. That day I had worked 7am until 7pm at the hospital and 11 until 7 at the nursing home. Very understaffed.  Any advice please! ?