I have found this group to be very therapeutic and help through so much stuff. I know in nursing school and even in starting a job we have learned behaviors. It doesn’t mean it’s right, but it’s what is done. Something I have found I have thought about is with my first patient event. I have talked about this before so read previous posts for the full story.
Anyway long story short, I keep circling back to repetitive thoughts and shame.
This is because when I first attempted to take my patients blood pressure after an obscure automatic reading, I had attempted multiple times to take a manual blood pressure, but could not even focus. So when I go back to put in my charting I documented it was in range being unsure if it was, as well as the medication 15 minutes later than what was administered to keep it in time frame. Well after I did that and still watched my patient, it didn’t sit with me. I felt so ashamed. I go back within 30 minutes of it all and get all correct and current vitals. I enter them in the system. This did bring a relief but I did not want to delete previous information as it would look suspicious. I know the vitals I entered had to be close because of the trend but still just makes me feel ashamed to admit as a nurse. I know when I went to go talk with my manger, I couldn’t get all the words out to tell her but she understood what I was trying to say. She said, you have punished yourself more than what I ever could. Learn and grow from it.
To this day, everything in the chart is documented as accurate as possible. I know I have witnessed many nurses falsely document or not even document at all. I know that doesn’t make it right, but again a learned behavior. Learn from your mistakes. Be kind to yourself. Admit your wrongdoings. Similar situations?
I have found this group to be very therapeutic and help through so much stuff. I know in nursing school and even in starting a job we have learned behaviors. It doesn’t mean it’s right, but it’s what is done. Something I have found I have thought about is with my first patient event. I have talked about this before so read previous posts for the full story.
Anyway long story short, I keep circling back to repetitive thoughts and shame.
This is because when I first attempted to take my patients blood pressure after an obscure automatic reading, I had attempted multiple times to take a manual blood pressure, but could not even focus. So when I go back to put in my charting I documented it was in range being unsure if it was, as well as the medication 15 minutes later than what was administered to keep it in time frame. Well after I did that and still watched my patient, it didn’t sit with me. I felt so ashamed. I go back within 30 minutes of it all and get all correct and current vitals. I enter them in the system. This did bring a relief but I did not want to delete previous information as it would look suspicious. I know the vitals I entered had to be close because of the trend but still just makes me feel ashamed to admit as a nurse. I know when I went to go talk with my manger, I couldn’t get all the words out to tell her but she understood what I was trying to say. She said, you have punished yourself more than what I ever could. Learn and grow from it.
To this day, everything in the chart is documented as accurate as possible. I know I have witnessed many nurses falsely document or not even document at all. I know that doesn’t make it right, but again a learned behavior. Learn from your mistakes. Be kind to yourself. Admit your wrongdoings. Similar situations?