Almost 3 years now....

[HisHands, ASN, RN]

You know, I was bored and started looking through my account at some old old old posts. I found posts from before I started nursing school. Oh the anticipation of what was going to happen, how I would feel as a pioneer in the trenches paving a way for the sick to find healing. I found old posts from my first semester when I was so dumbfounded about a question regarding the action of calcium and vit d. I found posts of myself just after graduation and going into my first job. I still remember my first day working as a real NURSE. Good God, there must be some mistake. I'm a BABY! You couldn't possibly expect me to take on this much responsbility. You mean, I actually have to really truly KNOW those lab values?! I just thought they were there to make the chart look all official. I've found posts about joy and heartache. Being there for the first birth of my profession. Seeing the first passing.

I found so much peace looking back. All those situations that seemed unbearable then are so funny now. All those hours of worrying have been forgotten. I love looking back.

Anyone else reflect through the help of these boards and find funny/insightful posts from before? How much have you grown since you came to allnurses?

Blessings

Crystal

[TazziRN, RN]

Neat feeling, isn't it?

I remember that, during my second year of nursing, when we had students observing in the ER, I felt like I didn't know squat and that everyone could tell. The students latched onto me and kept asking questions, and one of them asked how long I'd been out. I told her I had graduated the year before, and she said, "Wow! You act like you've been doing this a long time!"

That's when I realized just how much I had grown. Yes, I still had a lot to learn and was still considered a baby, but I had come a long way in that year.

[jc1207]

I cant wait until I become a RN and look back to my posts. Not that I have posted a lot because im fairly new, but I definetly want to see the one I posted today-(Scared!!!)

It must be a great feeling to look back and see of how your stomach churned everytime you thought of the unknown, or when you are still doing pre-reqs and worrying if youll make it through the class, or when you first begin your clinicals............I CANT WAIT TO LOOK BACK!!!!!!!!!

PS. Im on a waiting list now for the nursing program........waiting and waiting and SCARED TO DEATH because its coming!!

[banditrn]

I remember when I was a new grad - I worked with this other gal who'd been out of school 3 1/2 years, and I remember thinking that when I'd been working that long, I'd know everything like she seemed to.

Many years later, tho, it dawned on me that I STILL didn't know everything - and when I did, they'd just CHANGE it all!

[all4schwa]

That's a neat idea!