Worry about the future

I know where you are. I remember signing my agreement (minimal 2 years, but can be up to 5). I have 6 months left (God willing). It was/is a hard, long road. But i made it a year and a half. It doesn't seem so long now.....but when I had 2 years ahead of me it did.

I hated (I STILL hate) being told "one day at a time" and "just pray" and "give it to your higher power". I DO....but these are all still legitimate worries! And sometimes you have to let yourself worry.

I scraped by working at Sprint, walmart, Denny's. Finally got creative and became a lab tech at a medical research office. Now, two days a week the let me do RN duties. For no extra pay. BUT.....it helps me meet my supervised RN requirement AND they don't have to pay an agency nurse the few times a week they need one. Win win. Sort of. I am scraping by. paycheck to paycheck. I am constantly using my overdraft. I have no luxuries. only the bare minimums. As long as I can continuously borrow, make partial payments, use overdraft, and fenagel every week....I will plod along and eventually know that once i am done....i can get a "real" nursing job again.

It happens. It's not easy. I wont tell you to take it one day at a time. BUT.....I have learned how to slowly let go and use that strategy! Good luck!

I have not been where you are regarding the board, monitering, etc. I wish you luck with that. i have however, been there done that regarding finding a job, no $$$$$, single parent, etc. I graduated from nsg school @ 45. Before then, I struggled with $$$ and babysitters and tests, etc. I figured after I graduated life would be soooo easy................. wow, was I wrong! I found a great job (thanks be to God) and I am still struggling. The point of this is to tell you that we all struggle.... your burden is bigger than some and less that others. You can do this! Whether it be one day, one bill, one meal, one job at a time. Keep us posted on how you are doing! (((HUGS))) to you......... :redpinkhe