Tried to do the right thing

I have been out for a week for my own Lap Chole. I was hoping to go back tomorrow because we are sooooo shortstaffed, even though I was written out until Monday. I work Home hospice and the educator called me today (she is helping out while me and the big boss are out) and I asked how it was going and she said my supervisor is losing it. My recovery isn't quite where I thought it would be. Still some soreness and ridculously uncomfortable abdominal bloating (I look and feel as if 6 months pregnant)

I know if I do lifting and pulling, I'm going to hurt. I lifted my 40lb daughter out of a shopping cart yesterday and it was painful.

So, feeling guilty, after my post op appt today I texted my supervisor saying I am not feeling 100%, I'm still in some pain an uncomfortable, but I don't mind coming in and seeing lighter patients (which we do have). She asks if the doctor cleared me. I said yes, depending on how I physically feel. She got a little testy and said she cant make these decisions. I told her I was just trying to help. She told me to ask HR, she doesn't want that decision on her shoulder.

She had expressed feeling like she would be responsible if I got hurt. But she's not. I'm cleared, it's a matter of what feels physically OK.

So, I was trying to help, instead I made more problems, like I was dumping resonsibility on her. My supervisor is, ummm, I don't know how to explain her. She I think is getting burnt out by her job. She;s been doing it for 20 years, in the same company. She wears her stress outside.

I feel like I messed everything up. I should have said "I'll be back Monday" and left it at that, but I just wanted to give any help I could without being in pain.

I guess its all or nothing.

Just kind of venting, talking it out, deciding which direction I am going to go in the AM. I don't even get what I am supposed to be asking HR. By the time this is decided it will be late already.

Ugghh.