Thursday September 22, 2022

Happy first day of fall! It was 100 degrees here yesterday, so as much as I want to break out the fall wardrobe there are limitations. This morning feels really nice so far.

Joe, glad you were able to manage the work day with time to spare. Our choir practice was spare last night. Only 4 of us until a soprano showed up later. But it was good. We're not singing this Sunday, but will next.

Sister-in-law is willing to be a co-guardian so we are still marching toward trying to get all this stuff filed in court in Indiana.

dianah, I'm an alto. Though finding it harder to reach the lower notes of the alto range these days. 

I agree that key limes are awfully small for juicing. It takes a lot of limes to make much juice or zest. I have an awful sweet tooth and sometimes just crave something sweet. Then I overdo it and feel a bit sick. 

This day has been interrupted a lot trying to arrange things legally as far as stepson. I don't know how much success we'll have but at least we will have done what we could. It doesn't help that we're so far away. 

Dealt with a patient complaint that reminds me that "psych is everywhere" as one of my nursing instructors said. 

Cinderella here...

I had to go to the post office and then get Nannie's meds at WalMart, plus refills of all her feminine hygiene products; then get suppers for us all. Then I had to empty all the trash and wheel the bins out to the street, because tomorrow is trash pickup day.

I also have had to change Nannie at least once, sometimes twice a day--- she gets lazy, and instead of putting on a fresh pull-up she will attach 2 pads to the crotch of her pants, the pads overflow, and when she stands up from her chair, the floor under her gets a good size puddle. Also her socks and suede boots get wet! I had to tell her emphatically today that IF she needs to change her pull-ups, call one of us to help her get it all off and dry stuff put on. Putting pads in her pants does not help! I had to do yet another load of her laundry today. I know she needs (and I need for her to have) another caregiver, but we have yet to figure out a way to pay for help for her. She doesn't qualify for Medicaid and her only savings are what she set aside to pay for her funeral and burial.  

Hubby is still hurting under his right armpit, the ribs, which is where he hit when he fell for a second time at the beginning of the week. And he is still drinking, now there's a surprise, huh?

Something has got to give; I am getting tension-nausea; my throat feels tight, making me cough and sometimes gag. I just CANNOT do it all! Maybe tomorrow when hubby is relatively sober for his Dr's appt, I am going to have to tell him we can't depend on me all the time. 

I hope the Dr. or Dr's can impress upon him the REAL NEED for HIM to make an EFFORT at improving his health. 

G'day.

Stars, seems like your doctor already had the talk "you drink you die" so doubtful anymore more the doc or you, or anyone can say that would make him change.  He'll agree and understand but then won't change.  But there's no such thing as a lost cause so who am I but a negative energy you don't need.  I'm sorry you're doing through this.  I know somethings got to change because the stress will affect you.  He needs to step up to the plate.

Dianah, glad the cake (I thought it was a pie so I forgive you the cream cheese frosting) turned out good.  The stores here sell key lime juice in bottles.  I had a key lime tree in my back yard and they are pain to juice.  I think teriyaki is too sweet.  I have a friend that Zooms her brother once a week with a new recipe.  They have a theme like "Moroccan food night", etc.

Witchy co-worker quit/got fired the other day.  It might have been over being fired by a patient and them going to administration.  It's the 2nd time a patient fired her.  My guess is she was counseled and quit.  But not my business, I and many others are glad to see her gone.

Have a great day.

One thing about me and I'll shut up. 

Some of you that were here at the time might remember this and I got some good support here.

I went through alcoholism with my ex. Over a year I stood by him and listen to his promises of quitting and getting treatment and lies and broken promises.   I did all I could for him.  Ultimately I made a decision and drew a line in the sand and said "the bottle or me".  Of course he said me, promised to change, and then continued with the lies and drinking and when I found out, I had to live up to my promise to myself and ended a ten year relationship.  It was a mess to get out of because we were entangled and I had no where to go, and he cried and promised and promised but I'd had enough and the line was drawn.  Maybe he cleaned up and is sober now, maybe not, I don't know.  It was a horrible year and horrible lonely time afterwards.  We had many good years together that was hard to throw away.  But I had to get tough, had to make him face the consequences of his actions, and had to find myself.

I know Stars doesn't have the options financially that I did then, and it's complicated with Nannie and I'm not saying that should be her option, but just saying where I'm coming from which is a dark place of pain and loss. This is what alcoholism does.  We break ourselves trying to fix someone we didn't break.

Tweety, I want you to know that I really, truly do appreciate your input. I'm a Yankee and Yankees are used to being blunt and hearing blunt truths, so no worries. I am glad you shared that anecdote again, because I didn't remember it. I am not at the point, yet, of contemplating leaving, yet I am contemplating the "What happens if..." scenarios.

I was never an actual Girl Scout, but I do believe in being prepared!

Thanks for being you!